=)

Untitled

2010-04-07T04:03:00.000-07:00

Okaaayyy... So I'll start my mouldy blog with how we LOST at the B.Jaring com...
See wat u get when u put ur hopes too high??
Broken hearts...

We ALL thought we could win.. And we COULD... Just many careless mistakes... And we ended up blaming one another for our lost... How 'sporting' is dat?
But everything and everyone was fine after a h*ll load of scolding from everyone..
Xcept me.. I was the only one in the team emo-ing (if dat's how they put it)...

I dun noe wat's wrong with me these days...
I just wanna remain depress no matter how hard I try to get rid of the feeling...
I really hate to ruin other ppl's happiness with my freakish moods, but I often seem to fail...
All this while, I've been hiding under my own mask of happiness...
Nothing can touch me... I was just happy, joyful, carefree me...
But then, my armour was breached, and the hole is slowly getting bigger...
Now I'm getting more and more selfish. Last time, I wouldn't think twice of making a fool of myself just to make ppl happy... I don't care if they laugh with me or at me... My priority was always other ppl's happiness.. Now, the world seem to only revolve around me and my moods... I feel so selfish, yet I cannot do anything about it no matter how hard I try..

I'll just start blaming everything on my teenage mood swings... I really hope this IS normal...
I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up (die, pass away, pushing daisies...)
I want to bask in my own sorrows, but at the same time, I WANT soooooo badly someone to talk to... I need someone to open up to. I dun noe how much longer I can last...
I duwan to feel dis way, yet the choice is not mine to make...

I need to TALK!! Only talking and laughing can make me feel close to normal again...
But when everyone sees my scary mood, all they want is to leave me alone 4ever, even my friends.. So I guess I'm all alone to face my many problems... Even IF someone wants to help, I have no idea how he or she could...

Somtimes, I feel so confident. Like the world is mine to conquer. But the next minute, I could feel insecure and small, I'm afraid that even my presence may piss someone off... My feelings are like a roller coaster, only ten times more loops and jumps...

I have no one to turn to, no one to talk to, no one to laugh with...
I guess it's still just me and my moods for the time being..
And it sucks...

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RaNDOM POSTS

2010-01-19T05:29:00.000-08:00

Huh~ It's been sooo long since I updated my blog...
I can skip all the apologies cuz I noe it will be years until the nxt post..
Just typing everything random I can think of..

Just finish reasing my skool BM novel 'Seteguh Karang",
and I did a very unexpected thing... I actually cried....
Ahaha~ Not that Im a real emotional person or anything (Mayb just a TEEEny bit)
Anyway, the story was so touching, abbout a girl who had to face her life...
Okay~ that may soung boring... But it's just the way the author writes it that makes it soo real...
I can really feel the main character's (anis) pain. I cried like 3 times during the whole story...
The feeling and the pain that Anis felt was really well described.. Kinda made me feel her pain as well.. So, I guess that's y I cried.. Cuz of some imaginary character's hardship in a story...

At least the way the story was told was quie cool and real (means wat ppl will usually think)...
Not that kind of typical malay lame stories where they have to repeat everyting other ppl say and act polite...
This novel has some cool jokes which most of the 'polite' novels lack...
Plus, what Anis thinks is really cool.. Haha~ She hates mushy love movies as well and will get mad easily... And there's kind of a twillight feeling in it... (just a bit, no need to feel insulted, twillight fans)... Ah~ a good story indeed!!! Hu tot that such a novel will be chosen as our literature.. haha...
So, in conclusion......... I LOVE this novel...

So, plz dun critisize the crying part of me... Just blame it on the teenage hormones... =)

And, I would like to dedicate this small portion of my humble blog to Hui Linn, if she's reading..
I really am going to miss you!!! I don't feel that I can laugh as hard without you..
You are by far the first person whom I think have the same sense of humour with me.. And I think I can nvr find another.. Hope tat u will still remember lil' old me when u r in Aus...
And don't u dare cum back wif an Austrailian slang!! haha~ gonna miss u, a lot... =)

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Ressurected

2009-12-09T06:08:00.000-08:00

This blog is officially ressurected by me..
Didn have to time to write in it...
Hmm~ let's see.. wat's new??
Well, I came back from the training...
And Im proud to say that I really kept enjoying the Lord after coming back.. Even until 2day... I can't say that I've abided in the Lord for 24 hours the whole day, but I did have some improvement... =D Praise the Lord..

Oh~ and my little dark secret is out... Or should I say my big black horrible secret which has been hidden for ages and no one ecxept God knew...
Now, it has been made known to a few ppl...
But unfortunately, I dun feel the relief I was hoping to feel after the secret is out...
The main problem is because this BIG PROBLEM is still bothering me.
And I have simply no idea hoe to overcome it...
But I will try... My very best...

Oh~ And I have to preach the gospel during skool reopens..
I always promise myself that I will. But I failed miserably..
So, this time, I will pray to the Lord, and ask for strength for me to have the burden...
I really dun wan my frens to point at me on judgement day and say:
"You!! You didn preached the gospel to us, now we have to suffer bcuz of YOU... " (aiks..)

And Rachel is coming this Saturday... Hurray!!!
I dun think I can take it anymore... It's sooo boring, cus my sis left for one month...
And Im all alooone (wif my parents)... With no one to laugh with... =(
So, thank God for Rachel!! =)

p/s: I miss my lil' sis... =(

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Dreadful results

2009-11-11T02:03:00.000-08:00

I was kinda anticipating my results...
Wandering how horrible it was...
So, the last few days, teachers have been marking like half-crazes marking machines...
Well, we can say dat they were marking at the speed of light bcuz they had a deadline...
Hahaha... But dat may be bad news for us students...
Fast crazy marking teachers may not mark properly or even go through wat students have been writing for 2 hours and all their heart or blood that was shed while answering...

Maybe it's too dramatic...
Anyway, when I got my results back, sadly, I didn leap up into the air or shout happily...
The best I could afford was a frown and say : Maybe d next one will be better...
But, unfortunately, the next one was NOT BETTER...
In fact, it was almost the same...

This is wat I got after years of blood and hard toil:

Sejarah: 78
Fiziks: 71
Add maths: 74
Maths: 71

But, there was one absolutely hilarious result I got for a subject, english...
Guess wat I got......................................................................................................guess guess..........................................................................................................................................................99%
Can u imagine that?????????
Im NOT HAPPY OR PROUD!!!
Just find it devastatingly FUNNY....
Hu gets 99 for english??? It makes no sense to me...
There were 2 essays and that makes it more illogical how I could get 99....
In fact, I find it stupid and insulting...
Dis just means the teacher didn really look through wat I spent 2 hours writing...
It's just STUPID!!!
Wat kind of teacher gives students 99 for ENGLISH wif 2 ESSAYS???????

4give my outburst, I just wanted my feelings to be made known that Im not satisfied with my grades... I rather get low marks than get a super-duper irrational 99%...

Anyway, I not satisfied with my other subjects either...
My mum is not ganna feel happy and jump for joy with me...
In fact, she's assuming that I would study the WHOLE school holidays and 'catch up'...
I wanna faint..................................

Well, that's my results, the rest still remains a mystery... (Im grateful)
Luckily, my heart didn went into cardiac arrest when I got bac my results... Thanks for beating bravely my dear 16 year old heart...

I guess I'd make my resolution now:
1. I will spend my long holidays staring at the book until finally something makes sense.
2. i will not be angry or lose my temper no matter how much my mum nags at me to study.
3. I WILL try to be grateful when my mum is tutoring me.
4. I will try not to think of wat I could have done instead of staring at my bio book for 10 hours.
5. My eyeballs will stay in their sockets while I try to squeeze some information into my useless brain.
6. I will remember wat I read until my SPM.

As we can see, all of them is quite impossible to keep... Or, I will die trying....

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I did it!!

2009-11-02T22:12:00.001-08:00

HOOOOORAAAAAAY!!!!
I did it!!! I finished the inhuman torure of the dreadful final exams!!!
Oh my!!!
After the last paper, I would like to say dat I stripped down to my underwear and somersault around the classroom...
But sadly, that didn happen, no.1, I can't somersault even if my life depends on it (I'd probably break my fat neck) no.2: I dun tink my frens will still be alive if they saw me only in my undies...
I can't say it's a good sight, they might end up throwing up or in the ICU...

Anyway, wat I did right after the exam was...................................................... I felt happy.....
Yup, lame I noe... Wat did I expect myself to feel??
Well, so my exam days are just over like that... (wat was I expecting? Fireworks and lightning?)
And I have no idea how to celebrate...
My frens say they will celebrate with a GOOOOOD LOOOONG nap...
AHaha... I wish I was that lucky, I can't slp... So that's y I'm typing this....

So... I dunno wat my plans are... Mayb I'll go back to Gambang later... I'll be goin to Klang tmrw..
Well, I dunno... I just feel..... weird n empty... Now exams are over, I duno wat to do.. (Is dat even normal??)

Well, I'll not be going to skool nxt few days... Those hu haven't had chineses paper yet, GOOD LUCK!! You will need it... Bcuz I DON'T!!! (ahaha... 4gif me, I still haven't got over the I-dun-need-to-take-chinese-anymore-forever feeling... Maybe it will go away in.... 5 years!!! =p)

Actually, I might need my luck, I still haven't gotten back my results... Maybe it will cause me a heart attack and I will die a painful and horrible death...
Or maybe, it will be sooooo good, I myself will not belive it, and teachers will parise me for my hard work...... (Nah, nvr going to happen in a thousand years,,,)
Well, forget the results, I'll just enjoy my happiness while I still have it... =D

Hmmm... Going to ride bike later maybe...

People in the world!!! Im so happy!!

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Last Lap!!

2009-11-01T22:34:00.000-08:00

This is it!!
It's d last day of d dreadful exam... TOMORROW...
Tomorrow..... Faster.......... Tomorrow!!!
After d last paper, I will scream and shout, and take of my pants and run round the classroom...
Well, mayb Im not stripping...
But, I will be happy definitely!! =p

Im WAITING....
Impatiently.... =p

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Almost!!

2009-10-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

Yay people!!!
The exams are ALMOST over!! (notice I say ALMOST...)
Well, it isn't over yet,
But I have no idea why I feel like it's over...
Anyway, I really donno how I did this time...
Seriously, everytime I think I did quite well, the results makes me get a heart attack when it came out..
Everytine I tot I did quite terrible, the result is much better than I expected...
So Im not thinking or hoping on ANYTHING...
I jus hope my heart won't fail when I get back my results...

Wat am I talking about???!!! Exams aren't even FINISH...
And here I am, blabbing bout my unknown results...
=.=''... I need a break....

My Poem

2009-10-23T07:04:00.000-07:00

Tresspass not that section,
or you will regret what will happen.
In a split second,
my heart will have a dent.
Don't you know that it's wrong,
to sing other people's song, and tell them it's another.
But it isn't, so don't bother.
There will no chance to be sober,
because it is all over.

All things happen for a reason,
but this is called treason.
Don't you know between good and bad?
Or you just want to make me mad.
The thin line that was there,
is causing such a nightmare.
Because it is not what you think it is.
there is no more love and bliss.

But forget what I say,
You never did care anyway.
After all this time,
I was never fine.
But now it is all gone,
so don't bother to sing along.

I wrote this during my eng paper... Was too bored... =p
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Gah~

2009-10-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

Again...

Teacher said: jane, u must practice... Plz practice... practice practice.....
I did. Seriously, I just get nervous when Im playing the piano in front of her...
So I sucked... Very seriously sucked.....

Haiz~ I WILL PRACTICE MORE!!!
But exams are here... That's my BIG problem...
Im not very gud at time management....
So, I guess I'll just make a list of things to do and not to do...

Things to do:
=Practice piano
=Study
=Memorise
=Understand wat Im actually reading
=Think of happy thoughts after exam
=Breathe in front of the test paper

Things NOT to do:
-Freak out when thinking of wat I still havn't study
-Listen to music when studying
-Hate myself 4 forgetting wat I just studied a minute ago
-Hit my head and torture myself if I cannot remember
-Get head and brain damage while studying
-Eat to distress
-Forget to practice piano for d millionth
-Think of the LONG stretch of exam days
-Writing my will in case I die in my classroom

Thing I think I can acheive:
+Freak out
+Going blank in front of the examination paper
+Freak out sumore
+Absolutely despise myself for having such a LOUSY memory
+Binge while studying
+Do VERY BADLY in exam

As we ALL can see, my list of things NOT to do is absolutely longer than my things to do... So that means I have many things NOT to do instead of doing things. And things I can acheive is my list of things NOT to do...

So that's about it... I think Im a lousy person.... =(

So: Gah~

_end_

Lost

2009-10-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was our drama comp...
All of us were pump and ready to go...
We were nervous of cuz..
But as ready as ever.
We were the 3rd team to perform. Boy, we really were nervous..
haha...
When our turn came, we did our best. I feel that it was the best in our drama history..
After the performance, we were happy...
Who will not be after so much hard work???
well, so we waited for our results...
We waited, and waited, and waited, and waited.............
Finally th judges announced the results.
Consolation prize : Tanah Putih, Air Putih.............. =.= we were all like : aiyo.............=(

Haiz.... We really thought we could have won...
At least during our drama we got positive feedbacks from the audience. They were laughing.
I took that as a good sign...

Well, the 1st place is St. Thomas...
2nd is SABS
3rd is .... I 4got...

well, I n Anil were sour grape-ing...
I noe... sore losers... So wat? U wouldn't expect us to cheers and shout happily?
Anyway, we did our best. Now I jus hope that consolation prizes were announced randomly, oe we got VERY behind.... =(

We broke the SMKAP-always-top 3-since-2005 record.
Yikes... Im sorry teacher...
Y not we blame it on the judges?? =p

fotos on facebook!! =D

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Finally!!

2009-10-08T05:06:00.001-07:00

Yes, people!!
Finally!!! I have a......... FACEBOOK ACCOUNT!!!!
After years of persuasion and a lot of requests, I finally have a acc...
Muahaha...

So, dun ask me : Eei, U got facebook???

Not anymore do I have to say : No... It's lame....

Although I still it is still quite lame...
well, lame is in season it seems....

Actually, I wanted an account bcus I love the 'Guess the sketch challenge'...
haha...
Anyway, the harm is done,
I hope the choice will be fun.

_end_

Moon Cake Fest!!

2009-10-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

Wish all of you guys Happy mooncake festival!!!
Dun burn urself while playing candles!! ^^

_end_

Special request

2009-09-29T07:22:00.000-07:00

This is specially requested by my dear fren Liew Chien...
She wans me to write in my blog:
She wans to marry.... (=.=)

Ya, weird, I noe. But wat can I do? I promised. Hehe...
So here goes:

GO LIEW CHEIN WANTS TO MARRY!!!

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Warning

2009-09-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

Be careful,
some things can be found again,
but some just melt in the rain,
causing so much trouble and pain,
the things in your life that's main,
losing it, life will never be the same.

Remember,
things you hear and things you see,
are never meant to be free,
there is always a fee.

Beware,
of people's words,
sweet things they say to lure,
until you are not sure,
then your failure and fall is near.

Watch out,
to those who think they know much,
many things and knowledge they touched,
otherr people they like to judge.
But one day, they will witness and watch,
their own mistakes and pride their life will cost.

H.o.l.i.d.a.y.s

2009-09-22T05:10:00.000-07:00

YaY!!!
The holidays are here!! (duh~obviously...)
Well, not going anywhere special eventhough my parents have the same holidays wif us..
So, we just went back to Temerloh...
And so, here I am, updating my blog in Temerloh...
Well, I dun really mind not going anywhere, as long as Im with my family...
The days without them really is.... I dunno how to put it...
Being away from home for soooooooo long really can make a person feel....... umm.. Unloved??
I dunno, u have to experience it to describe that frustrating feeling...
So, those who are sick of staying wif ur parents, go stay out for one month, and u will run back home crying... Seriously....

Well, my mum and dad missed us too... Haha... They keep buying A LOT of food for us. Like we were starved in Kuantan. Guess they were trying to make up for the time we lost.
Well, I really dun blame them... I guess, I just miss them too much...
Even after Im home wif them, I still miss them.. (Yea, stupid, I noe)
So please appreciate ur parents... Seriously....

To those who are having a GOOD time, dun forget to studeeeeee!!!! haha...
I noe, but exams are almost here...
Think of the consequences if u dun...
Anyway, time management is important (I suck at it) during this times...

Have a wonderful holiday amigos!!

p/s: I feel fat... (!.!)

The opp of LOVE..

2009-09-17T02:42:00.000-07:00

I seriously dunno wat is wrong with her....
WAT IS HER FREAKING PROBLEM??!!!
1st of all, it's MY script,
2nd of all, I've got ALL the actions figured out, so she doesn't have to waste her brain cells.
Then WHY is she acting sooo kesian? Like she's doing all the work??
IT"S MY SCRIPT!!!
Oh my goodness...
She's gonna make me blow my own head out!!!
And she got all the actions wrong. The voice wrong. It's just NOT what I wanted...
And I tried ti change it to the way it was supposed to be.. And she scolded me...
(T.T)
But this all I can take. Wat I can't take was, she scolded me for her stupid mistake.
In the script she modified, Aimi was supposed to walk out with a big tummy!! I mean, WTH?? She's only 16 moron!!! And u are a teacher wif brains!! Think!!!
And then I told her, I made some changes to ur modifications, bcuz 16 year old Aimi jus CANOT have a big tummy!!

And that's when she did the most unpredictable thing, she shouted at me.
Miss Phua: OF CUZ SHE CANOT HAVE A BIG TUMMY! WHO ASK U TO PUT BIG TUMMY?!
Me: I did not put big tummy!! U were the one who wrote it!!
Miss Phua: NO!! NO I DID NOT!! JUST FOLLOW THE SCRIPT LAH!!!
Me: This script is after I've modified her BIG TUMMY!!! You WROTE IT URSELF!!!!
Miss Phua: Oh!! That one, I was just joking around wif the teachers, we follow the script.

Oh. My. Goodness.
I would have quit right then if it wasn't MY script she was holding.
I mean, this is too much. I have my pride you noe? My way of thinking...
Ish~
I have nothing else to complain. I can't.... I just dun have the energy.

To Miss Phua: U may have won this round, but I won't let u make the fool out of me and my script. Get ready for round 2....

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RTM Auditorium

2009-09-11T02:29:00.000-07:00

Today went to the RTM auditorium at Tanah Putih there...
Miss Phua fetched me and Kar King.
Oh MY!! Wasn't she noisy...
Seriously, she was bla-bla-blaing with a high pitch voice: ....so u all have to think, and themusic, I thinkk it is best..... bla bla bla....
I think my ears bled inthe car... Seriously annoying...
Then we reached the stadium. One word. WOW..
It was HUGE and nice...
But we got a nice shock when we saw the stage. It was full of lights.
Lights which we had to control during the drama...
There were like hundreds of them...
WOW..... and it has a backstage room which people can make-up and stuff. Cool...
So we checked the place out and took many fotos... It was rather a complicated looking place at the backstage...
After that we just sat around, due to Kar King MEGA-EMOING, we didn't talk much.
I wonder wat happened to him... He looks VERY down and deppresed these days... I haven't seen him like that... And he kept on checking his hp. Mayb waiting for *someone's* message.
Looked like he was crying... My goodness... Drained all my high spirits and left me feeling only annoyed at the super high-pitched teacher...
All the other skools teacher were discussing about the lighting and all I could hear was her voice...
She kept on talking n talking ntalking n talking........
So here I am now at home, tired and have an ear-ache...

P/s: It's just a cruel joke.... =(

_end_

Tagged

2009-09-08T02:27:00.000-07:00

A - AVAILABLE : Yes
B - BIRTHDAY: 27 March
C - CRUSHING ON : *zipp*
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Kekwa
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : My sista
F - FAVORITE SONG : hymns
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : worms =)
H - HOMECOUNTRY : Malaysia
I - IN LOVE WITH : *zipp*
J - JUGGLE :Can't... Tried and failed...
K - KILLED SOMEONE : I think no...
L- LONGEST CAR RIDE : 4got... I was sleeping...
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Definitely mint....
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1
O - ONE WISH : Happiness
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My mum
R - REASON TO SMILE : My frens
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Dont know
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 6.09 am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN : erm... haha...
V - VEGETABLE(S) : Kangkung
W- WORST: Being misunderstood..
X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : once..
Y – YOYOS ARE : nice to play..^^
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Aries

Random Questions.
About You: Words would seem to simple
Spell your name without vowels : Chw Jn L
What color do you wear most? : Green gua...
Least favorite color? : yellow
What are you listening to? : Nothing
Are you happy with your life right now? : Yup =)
What is your favorite class in school? : My class... I love them all...
When do you start back at school/college? : err....
Are you outgoing? : To some people I am...
Favorite pair of shoes? : My slippers
Where do you wish you were right now? : My bed

THE CANS:
Can you dance? : Haha... You wanna see??
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : Nope..
Can you whistle? : Yup
Write with both hands? : Practicing with the left..
Walk with your toes curled? : Pain but yes...

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? : nope
Do you believe in miracles? : Yes.
Do you believe in magic? : Maybe
Love at first sight? : Yes.
Do you believe in Santa? : How old d'you think I am??
Do you know how to swim? : A bit. I won't drown..
Do you like roller coasters? : Yup!!
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : Some maybe...

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out? : I don't recall..
Have you ever been to the ocean? : Yup
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yes

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? : 29?
What radio station do you listen to? : Nope
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : McDonalds
What was the last thing you bought? : Food
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : The Spiderwick Chronicles

THE WHOS:
Who Sent these questions to you?: Someone did..
Who was the last person you text? : Err... My sis?
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : Zoey!!
Who was the last person you said I love you to? : I don't remember...

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? : Of Course..
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yup..
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : err... no.. But ppl cried on mine..
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : Never!!
Do you cry when you get an injury? : Last time yes... Now, not so..
Do certain songs make you cry? : Yes.. ^^

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? : Trying hard to be..
What can make you happy? : My family and frens
Do you wish you were happier? : Maybe
Can music make you happy? : Depends

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heartbroken: *zip*
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : *zip*
What is your current hair color? : Black.
Current piercings? : Nope
Have any tattoos? : Wish I had one!!!
Eye color? : Black

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color : Green
Get a haircut, Short or long hair : Short?
Height : More than 173cm
Best clothing : Nothing... =) (joking)

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail : Unfortunately, no..
Mooned someone : Wat does mooned mean?
Laughed so hard you cried : Many times!
Cried in school : Yes.
Thrown up in a store : Nope
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Many.. ^^
Gone skinny dipping : Definately NO!!

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King : Mcdonalds.
Single or Group Dates : Single
Chocolate or Vanilla : Campur
Strawberries or Blueberries : Strawberries
Meat or Veggies : Both.
TV or Movie : Movie.
Guitar or Drums? : Guitar
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Chinese or Mexican : Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Cheerios.
Cake or Pie : Pie
MTV or VH1 : MTV.

Lalala...

2009-09-08T01:52:00.001-07:00

Im happy!!! ^^
I actually feel much happier now...
Cuz??
Ahaha... Wiston (Eng Teacher) going to let us watch a movie tmrw!!
weeee.......
Umm... It's called Apocalypto (Or something that sounds similar, I seriously dunno)
well, It's hard to imagine that our goody-goody teacher would let us watch such a gross movie (as they say, it is filled with gory details)..
well, pigs can fly can't they?
They just need to loss some weight and grow a pair of wings. How hard can that be? =)

Had been working on the drama script for 2 days..
My brain seriously has no more brain juice. I squezzed the last drop..
What did I get in return?
'' Jane, you have to gimme the hardcopy. I canot view it in the pendrive!" Well, so much for Thanks a million, your sacrifices will be remembered!!
Anyway, I think it's quite good... Ahem, Since that noone is gonna compliment me, I'll do it myself!!
So.......... dat's why I'm happy... Can't understand? Well, that weird old me...

Then came the spider

2009-09-03T05:02:00.000-07:00

I confess, I have made many mistakes in my life...
I have tried to put it all behind me. Made it my PAST..
But sometimes, many things can resurface after a long period of time.
I have no intention of bringing it all back..
My stupid selfish ignorant mistakes...
Has haunted me for very long.
I hope I can 4get..
But time doesn't help much...
I feel sorta dizzy and dazed..
Missing.. Miss... Missed... gone....
I thought it was okay...
Turned out I was wrong...
But I will be strong.
Bcuz I will not let ya'll see the weakness in my eyes...

Now it's time to get rid of it once and for all...

p/s: Iloveyounot...

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My little dictionary

2009-08-25T23:54:00.000-07:00

light: A source you use in the middle of the night so that you will not kill urself walking from one end of the room to the other

hand phone: A device 89% of the young ppl can't survive without 2day. It males them distracted and not study. It may oso irritate parents when children use this device during eating.

Clothes: Something we wear in order not to frighten others with wat lies in layers on our tummy.

Mother: The closest person you have and cooks and clean. Have a high tendecy to scold you with no reason. But you love her very much anyway.

specs: A brilliant invention by (dunno hu). It is worn on the eyes. It keeps ppl safe by not walking into walls or even poles which are usually a blur when you are short-sighted.

Connie: A head-strong person hu can get very angry when small stuffs happen. ex: her ruler, pen is missing. May kill ppl somebody someday.. ( ahaha joking, dun kill me...)

violin: A beautiful musical instrument only when played by real violinist.. It may sound like a half-dead chicken and tends to cause earaches and headaches when played by a begginer.

Friends for sale (facebook): A place where you can buy ur friends or even loved ones and go bankrupt keeping them. It is also used to buy enimies and the poor person is ordered to pick up poop for the sake of the buyers entertainment.

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Don't even think about it

2009-08-25T23:45:00.000-07:00

Hey you..
(not the person reading this..)
Don't think u understand me soo well...
Dun think dat wat u say bout me is correct..
I absolutely HATE it when ppl misunderstand me...
Maybe if u look deeper, listen more instead of thinking rubbish, u might actually see the real me..
So stop guessing and start asking..
Stupid ppl jus think they are rite and blabber (is dis even a word??) wat they think..
I noe or maybe ju7st hope that u r not stupid..
I really treasure you but this has gotta stop..
My emotions are wrenched out everytime and my gut feels like someone stepped on it..
So can u PLEASE <<>>> to understand??
Or just shut up.. Thank you..

The above is for someone you all would never noe, even the person doen't noe.. So just ignore it!

p/ps: U noe how much I HATE misunderstandings.. It is something that KILLS MY FRIENDSHIP with other ppl.. plz, do not misunderstand me.. thank you very much..

No TIme

2009-08-25T23:27:00.000-07:00

My gosh!!! It's been centuries since I updated my blog...
Yikes...
I just dun have the time..
Even if I do, I dun have the line.. ( cool, it rhymes)
I've been crazy downloading mobile games..
Hehe... Bored to tears at home.. Well, It's better than in Kuantan..
Recently, things have not been too good wif the tenants and the owner..
Can't help it.. It's her house..
I just wish things doesn't have to be this way..
anyway, the new meeting hall is finished!! YaY!!!
It has a nice smell ( I like the smell of new buildings..)
And I can't wait to invite my friends over..

And I miss the trainings.. Wonder y there is no outing this time.. =.=
I wanna see my friends!!! AAArgh!!!

Well, Im typing quite randomly.. Anything that pops into my head now...
The 1st is add maths!!!
Hmm... I wonder y...
OO, for ur information, I dun hate add maths anymore.. Add maths hate me...
I got 40 something for last monthly test!!
How can it be??!!!
Cause Im still terrible at add maths..
It's not that hard actually.. Just takes plenty (I mean PLENTY) of hard work...
So, maybe that's why I got so low marks.. HAHA.. =.=

It's raining heavily in Gambang.. There is thunder and lighting (Can't go out, hanvn'tbeen a good girl recently.. nanti dipetir kilat) ..
Gosh..

Wat Im about to write next is strictly for my beloved blog: Dear blog, Im sorry u've been so lonely.. I just dun have a chance to update u.. Im soooooo sorry.. I will make it up to u..

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Durian Season

2009-07-12T06:27:00.000-07:00

Da durian season is HERE!!!
Actually it has been here for quite a long time...
Haha....
I ate a lot of durian this time..
Personally, I dun really like durian.
I neither hate nor like them.. Actually I dun like durian, no offense to durian lovers out there...
Usually during this seasin, I will stand a side while my dad mercilessly disect the durian and watch my mum and sister smile with glee looking at the yellow awful smelling goo within...
While they munch away happily, sucking the seed, I will always watch and put on my best digusted look when they offer me a durian... I kinda perfected that sour-looking expression over these long anti-durian years....

But this time, it is totally different. I'm not staying at home now, and when durian season came, I was actually looking forward to eating that awful-smelling-yucky-looking fruit...
I must use the word CRAVING to eat durians.... This is definitely rare....
And I ate a lot for my anti-durian standard.. Maybe it seemed like a poor-tiny-weeny looking portion to all durian lovers... Anyway, I feel in love with DURIAN!!!
Add me in the smelly durian history people!!!

But I can't eat too much, it's soo heaty, and b4 I noe it.. TAA-DAA!!! A newborn ulcer on my fat lips... =.="
Futhermore too much durian eating can just lead too other 'diseases' such as:
obese, overweight, fat = me
more spare tires to cum = on my car body
more new ulcers = on my lips
sister in coma = smelly fart
frens in coma = bad breath
Ppl chasing me with pitchforks = Many ppl in coma

So, as u can see, the odds are not good if Jane eats too much durian... She may unknowingly kill people as she happily sucks on a durian seed... So people, please say no to Jane & Durian!!!

Seriously, I need to control myself!!!
Well, if I dun have durian, I still got rambutans~
But now I prefer durians!!!
So, buy insurance people!!
I will not hold responsibility to anything that is going to happen!! ^^

Say what you need to say~ ^^

2009-07-06T23:08:00.001-07:00

Get your own Chat Box! Go Large!

Piano Exam

2009-07-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

Just now 10.05 am just had my piano exam.
Oh Lord, I was soooo scared!!! My hands kept shaking...
Well, it was better than last year. Last year I scared until my hand frozen and I seriously canot feel the piano... Well, at least this year my touch receptors didn abandon me.....

It all started well at 1st.. The 1st few scales were quite easy...
The problem started at F# melodic minor OMGosh~~~ I think I salah until very serius ar!!!!!
Aiyo, dun care la... Den my 1st exam piece sucked more than it should have. At least my 2nd and 3rd piece were ok... Haizzzz...... And sumore the aural... Walao~ die~

Anyway, my teacher said I will not fail. So I dun care anymore...

Well, there is something I would like you guys to appreciate, that is.......
My sister actually gave the examiner the booklet "The Mystery Of Human Life"!!! (applause ppl!!!)
She did something I wouldn't dare to do in my whole miserable life. And I think she deserves some acknowledgement from all of us...

So, everything ended quite well and I went back to skool...
They kip asking y I didn ponteng (a.k.a U r so stupid)... haha... Im a GOOD student... I won't simply ponteng de... (Plz hold ur vomit in ppl.. =.=)

Thank You Lord for guiding me through this day.
Lord I Love You....

EMAS Festival!!

2009-07-01T01:59:00.000-07:00

The army of 4...

crowded..
Our booth
The 'goyang kaki' teachers..
My team mates...

Went for this Maths and Science Fest (EMAS)...
It was really fun and cool...
It was held at Taman Pertanian and bout 50 skools sent out representatives as well...
We (Elaine, Li Yang, Kar Junn) opened a booth at the last booth (no.40)...
We prepared a few questions for the people hu visited our booth... Most of them were IQ questions which I absolutely believe I canot solve with my IQ-less brain...
There was this question which needed match sticks... And we didn have any, so we had to pick small sticks from the ground which was wet and yucky... (ewww...)

Things started getting hectic when ppl started pouring into our booth...
Well, our main job was to explain the questions to them (if they dun understand) and then give them a pen and a paper and let a miracle happen....

Most of them solve the easy 1 ( thx to the uncountable tips we gave them..)
Quite few of them managed to solve all... Actually it was only 1 person. And he got many presents from us... haha... congrats....

I was so tired explaining all the same things a zillion times...
Me:" Sini ada 7 bulat kan? Kamu isi bulat-bulat ini dengan nombor 1 hingga tujuh supaya bla bla...

Sien dao~~~~~~~~ And I was standing the whole time..... T.T
Plus, I didn get to visit the other booths which definitely had more interesting things going on...
I will participate next year... Not opening a booth, but going to every station!!!!
And the teacher was having sooo much fun sitting and eating and playing....
I only went out for a toilet break the whole time.....

Well, it was quite a good experience for me.. My BM improve loads due to the unstoppable flow of Malays at my booth. I can speak like a Malay!! Wahaha.... Joking, I lost the ability half an hour after the festival........

I would like to thank my friends who were as dilligent as me speaking weird Malay to all the ppl...
1. Mou Kar Junn
2. Poon Li Yang
3. Elaine Tan
4. ME!!!!

Thank u guys soo much!!!!

Something Special

2009-07-01T01:48:00.000-07:00

Hey people, looooong time no update. And Im not sorry!!
I dun have the time!!! Aaaa...... anyway, something to share wif u ppl..
I found my name in the PAPERS!!!
Yes ppl, I'm on the newspaper, on the sport section. This is no mirage, not an illusion...
And I certainly didn edited it in Photoshop....
Muahaha.... Face it, Im famous.... And Im a lawn bowler...

p/s: All the following above is fake... It's just someone hu share my terbalik name... Lucky person... But I did gotcha for a minute didn I.. haha..
btw, wat is lawn bowling??

Consecration

2009-06-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

During the training, I really enjoyed the whole training.
I feel more burdened to preach the gospel.
The brother really stressed on the point of the Gospel. A thing also really touched me.
That I should not boast or exalt myself an longer. Who I am to boast myself?? For there is this Greater, more Powerful person. The Creator of all things. He is the alpha, the Omega. He is the beginning, He is also the Ending. He is God.

Although many of us have no interest on this matter, but God is real and living. No one can deny this fact.

Throughout history some people have at times opposed the idea of God. The very fact that some rebellious sons disown their fathers means that they do have a father. The fact that some people tried to tear down the family means that the family is a reality. It has been proven in history that it is futile to oppose the idea of God, for no matter how cultures and human governments change, the belief in God always prevails in the end.

Although men cannot say much about God Himself, through the majesty displayed int the creation he can see that God is powerful. Psalm 19:1 says that '' the heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament proclaims the work of His hands.'' The material universe speaks of God's glory, and it also speaks of His wisdom. The God who created the universe is powerful, glorious, and wise.

The very existence of mankind speaks of the existence of God. The human body is a true marvel. Although modern medicine has invented many machines to imitate and to replace man's organ and limbs, no machine can come close to the dexterity and effectiveness of the human organs. The human heart pumps 72 times a minute, or 40 million times a year, while one is awake or asleep. Every day an adult heart pumps blood through 100,000 miles of blood vessel, enough to travel around the world 4 times. It pumps blood enough to fill a 2000 gallon tank car everyday. Who could have designed such a wonderful organ within man? If one were to pile up the red blood cells in his body, the height would exceed that of Mount Everest 5000 times!! These are but a few examples of the wonders of the human body. If we stand before a mirror, we cannot help but agree with what the psalmist in the Bible said:'' I am awesomely and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, and my soul knows it well.'' (Psa 139:14)

The very fact that mankind has been able to exist until today is a testimony yo the sovereignty of God. If God held back sunshine and air, man would have ceased to exist on this earth long ago. Every second, the sun burns up the equivalent of four million tons of fuel in order to keep our planet warm. If God were to charge men for this energy consumption, man would have to come up with about 160,000,000,000,000 U.S dollars a day. But all this sunshine and air has come to us free. As the Bible says," He Himself gives to all life and breath and all thing." (Acts 17:25)

My friends,

No matter what religion we are all in, we believe there is God. The is a powerful force which is ruling over this earth. Man DID NOT evolve from monkeys. Man was CREATED by God. The scientist who once claimed that man evolved from monkeys redrew his saying near his deathbed.
I regret I didn share with all of u guys about the gospel earlier. So I will start this instant.
In my next post I will explain the mystery of the Human Life. What is the purpose of man? Why is man on this earth today. Who is God. What does He wants man to do. All of these questions can be found in my next post. May the Lord continue to enlighten you and work in You. Praise The Lord!!

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The Mystery Of Human Life

2009-06-04T07:09:00.000-07:00

The Purpose Of Man's Existence
Have you ever asked yourself why you are living in this world?
What is the purpose and existence of human life?
No matter what your profession is, probably students, there must be a few things which you, like most people would agree with, that is:
Money cannot satisfy man,
Education cannot satisfy man,
Nor can pleasure satisfy man,
Nor can success satisfy man.
( Note: not satisfied in a way that we feel what we have now is not enough, we are not satisfied n we always, always wan more, wan to be greater, want to be richer etc...)

And you all must be wondering WHY??

Because you have not realized:

God's Plan
God has a plan. this plan has everything to do with man. In the Bible, this plan is called God's economy. God's economy is just God's entire plan for man. It explains the origin and destiny of man as well as the meaning of human existence.

How Can You Know God's Economy?
God has prepared four keys for you to unlock God's economy. These four keys are recorded in the Bible. Each of this four keys are equally important.
Please open your heart right now to quietly and carefully read through. You will then grasp these four keys, understand God's economy, realize the purpose of man, and begin a satisfied human life.

The First Key-God's Creation
Unlocking The Mystery Of Human Existence.
1. Man Has God's Image
Please read the following verse from the bible:
"And God said, Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness...." (Genesis 1:26a)

God's creation of man is different from His creation of all other things. He created man in His own image.
Example: A glove is created according to the likeness of a hand with the purpose of containing the hand. The purpose of a glove is to contain the hands. If we use a glove to contain water, sand or anything else, the glove will lose it's purpose.
Likewise, man was created in the image of God with the purpose of containing God.

2. Man Is A Vessel:
Now read the next verse:
God "might make known the riches of His glory upon vessels of mercy... even us" (Romans 9:23-24)

We are vessels of God. That means that we must contain God. God wants to be our content. As bottles are made to contain water, we are made to contain God.
It is no wonder that knowledge, wealth, pleasure, and accomplishment can never satisfy you, for you were created to contain God!!

3. The Three Parts of man:
Please continue to read the next verse: "May your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete." (1 Thessalonians 5:23)
We often say in chinese : ling hun.
Actually these to parts are separated. The {ling} is the spirit. The {hun} is the soul. Man is God's vessel. The Bible divides this vessel into three parts- Spirit, Soul, and the Body. See the diagram below:
The BODY is simply the physical body, belonging to the physiological body, contacting the things of the material realm, and is the most superficial part.
(Note: we eat with our body, we have to take care of our physical body, if not we will get sick. It is our flesh.)

The SOUL is the mental faculty, contacting the things of the mental realm, and is the deeper part of man.
(Note: Our conscience, emotions and thoughts belong to this part. We think, we love, we feel happy etc..)

The SPIRIT is the deepest part of man, belonging to the spiritual level, and contacts the things of God.
For problems of the body one may see a doctor.
For problems of the mind one may visit a psychiatrist.
Yet only God can solve the problems of the Spirit.

4. God's Economy:
God wants to enter into man's spirit, to become his content and his satisfaction.
This is the purpose of human existence! You are not merely created to contain food in your stomach, or contain knowledge in your mind, but you are created to contain God in your Spirit.

The Second Key- Man's Fall
Unlocking the Mystery Of The Good And Evil Natures Of Man
1. The Two Natures of Man
Since man was made in the image of God, he possesses a good nature that matches God's nature, with virtues such as truthfulness, goodness, loveliness, wisdom, kindness, and valor.
However, there is also an evil nature in man which wars against his good nature. The Chinese metaphysicists refer to this war as a battle between reason and lust. Throughout history, both in the East and West, those who understand human nature acknowledge the existence of this evil nature which the Bible calls:

2.Sin
Because sin is in man, he is unable to carry out his good intentions.
No one likes to be greedy, jealous, or muderous.
No one likes to be boastful, arrogant or deceitful.
No one likes to be irritable, lustful, or licentious.
No one likes to murmur, complain, or curse.
(Note: Sin is already in man from the day he was born. You don't need to teach a child to be jealous, you don't need to teach a someone to steal, you don't need to teach someone to lie. All these is he will do by himself. This is because he has sin in him. No one in this whole world has not sin before. Even if you do not cheat, steal, lie, brag outwardly, but you can't deny that your thoughts and your intentions are sinful. )

Nevertheless, man cannot escape his evil nature.
Please read the following verses:
"For I know that in me, that is, in my flesh. nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but to work out good is not." (Romans 7:18)
"But if what I do not will, this I do, it is no longer I that work it out but sin that dwells in me." (Romans 7:20)

3. The Fall Of Man
Sin entered into man and caused him to fall. See the diagram below:

(1) Sin caused man's spirit to be deadened:
"And you, though dead in your offenses and sins." (Ephesians 2:1)

(2) Sin caused man's mind to rebel:
"And you, though once alienated and enemies in your mind because of your evil works." (Colossians 1:21)

(3) Sin caused man's body to sin:
"Do not let sin therefore reign in your mortal body so that you obey the body's lust." (Romans 6:12)

The fallen man is like:
A damaged and untunable radio which cannot receive and play music, but rather meaningless noise.

He is also like:
A cup that has fallen into the gutter still having its original fine form but now covered with mud.

4. Man Cannot Save Himself
Throughout history, man has tried every possible way to escape sin, but has found that:
Good works cannot save him from sin.
Education cannot save him from sin.
Ethics cannot save him from sin.
Chanting cannot save him from sin.
Religion cannot save him from sin.
This picture of man simply depicts the battle between his good nature and his evil nature.

The Third Key-Christ's Redemption
Unlocking The Mystery Of The Life And Death Of The God-Man
1. Who Is Christ?
Christ is the Savior sent from God to the world to solve the problems of human life.
He is the embodiment of the Triune God.
"For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead bodily." (Colossians 2:9)

He is also God incarnated:
"The Word was God...the Word became flesh and tabernacled among us...full of grace and reality.'' (John1:1,14)

Therefore, He is both the complete God and the perfect man.
He is more than a good man!
He is more than a great man!
He is more than a moral man!
He is more than a holy man!
He is the God-man!!

2. The Death Of The God-Man
This God-man was nailed to the cross to accomplish the work of redemption. He died with three statuses:
(1) As the Lamb of God, He died to take away man's sin.
"...the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world.'' (John 1:29)

(2) As the brass serpent that had been lifted up,
He died to crush the old serpent, Satan, and to deal with the serpent's poison within man- his sinful nature.
"And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up." (John3:14)

(3) As a grain of wheat, He died to release the divine life.
"...the grain of wheat...dies, it bears much fruit." (John 12:24)

NOW:
His death has taken away the sin which man has but should not have!
His death imparts into man the life which he needs but do not have!

The Fourth Key- God's Dispensing
Unlocking The Mystery Of Faith In Christ
1. The Two Becomings of Christ
God became flesh, born as a man called Jesus.
Plaese read the following verse:
"The Word became flesh and tabernacled among us." (John1:14)

The Lord became the Spirit called the live-giving Spirit by His Resurrection from the dead.
Read the following verse:
"The last Adam became a life-giving Spirit." (1 Corinthians15:45)

Since this Spirit is the life-giving Spirit , He dispenses God with His life into His believers. Hence, the Bible says:
"He who has the Son has the life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have the life."

2. Regenerating Man
In his first birth, man obtains a physical life.
When man receives God's life through Christ, he experiences a second birth, which the Bible calls regeneration.
" God....has regenerated us...through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead." (1 Peter 1:3)

Jesus said,"Unless one is born anew, he cannot see the kingdom of God." (John 3:3)

A pig cannot participate in the sheep's life by education, improvement, or regulation; it must posses the life of a sheep.
(Note: U can't teach a fish to fly, but u surely don't need to teach it how to swim. This is because it posses the life of a swimming fish.)
Similarly, man cannot participate in God's kingdom and live a divine life by education, improvement, or regulation; he MUST receive the life of God!

3. The Meaning Of Being A Christian
A christian is one who receives God's dispensing. God first dispenses Himself into our spirit and then spreads from our spirit into our soul. Finally, He fills and saturates our spirit, soul, and body with Himself. The Bible calls this final stage of glorification.
"And those whom He predestinated, these He also called; and those whom He justified, these He also glorified." (Romans 8:30)

Through this, we can be transformed and conformed to the image of Christ.
"Because those whom He foreknew, He also predestinated to be conformed to the image of His Son." (Romans 8:29)

This is the purpose of human life!
This is the meaning of being a Christian!
This is what God has planned for you!

(Note: I repeat. To be a christian is not merely being in a religion or group. It is to have to Lord as our enjoyment. To know Him and take Him in as our supply. To be filled with Him in our Spirit. And all the things I typed above are not my sayings. It is taken from the booklet :The Mystery Of Human Life.)

Praise The Lord for such a wonderful and glorious economy!!!

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#Sweet 16# ^^

2009-03-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

eerr..... I see a very happy Mei Sim... WAHAHA!!!!

Our 'waxed' nails... haha....

err... it's suppose to be a star with a... a fire in the middle...

Wow... nice dimple... hihi....

My greedy face... wahaha...

My present... Thanks a lot!!! ^^

My pretty fat cake...

My poor terrorized desk...

It would be sweet if it wasn't BURNING on my desk...

The darkest hand belongs to liew chien... wahaha...

The bestest of the best... I totally love them!!

A mini bon-fire in class... HARAM...

Haha... *blush*

Yue Qing n Sharine da cuties... hehe...

Andy's masterpiece... thx...^^

Me n Wan Shing...

Weeee..................... can't live happily without her~ ^^

Wahaha...

bla bla bla..

Me n my ''emak tua''... wahaha...

Me n Vian...

My best buddies!!! T.T

Looks like I'm karate chopping my head (which I'm not)

The blue society...

The dalang behind this... And I LOVE her!!!

He looks angry... hehe...

Friday was my b'day...

The whole class celebrated wif me...

Haha... I'm so touched... They bought me a cake...

And we used sivik period to celebrate... haha...

Thank you everyone 4 making my day so special... I love averyone of u... 4C Is the BEST!! ^^

Jia Ling got her wish... This is definitely the most unforgetable day of my life... I thank everyone who has made it real....

Actually I haven't exactly finished my wish, cuz many ppl looked too eager to eat d cake...

So... here is my complete wish:

I wish dat 4C will always remain active (even hyper) and full of life... All 4C members will help each other no matter wat... Will love each other like family... Becuz we have the best if we have each other... And lastly.... I LOVE U, WHACKY PPL OF 4C!!!!!

I want to thank everyone hu wished me happy b'day...

I got a list: Liew Chien (very punctual), Jia Ling, Sharine, Lui Jieng, Ming Wei, Mei Yan, Celine, Wei Wah, Yew Jin, everyone in 4c, Boon Ying, Jing Jing, Stella, Bobo, Emay... N a few more I seriously can't remeber... Thanks guys!!! ^^

I'm sorry if I 4got ur b'days.... I wish u all now... HAPPY B'DAY EVERYONE!!!

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sshhh... lisTen.......

2009-03-21T00:58:00.000-07:00

This song on my blog...

LISTEN to the whole song.

Wait 4 it to load finish....

LISTEN.......................................................................

It can make you cry.....
If u were me....

the longer version: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQME-ChSwNM&feature=related

Gosh!!!!

2009-03-21T00:11:00.002-07:00

Gosh!!!
I fell sick...
Very sick...
During the holidays...
Dang.....
Spent 1 whole day writhing in pain...
My head didn belong to me anymore... It felt like someone was trying to nail me on the inside...
Every time I walked, my head hurts...
I feel hopelessly sick...

Luckily Liew Chien ''visited'' me...
The suasana in aunty's house was so heavy, it was like I died....
And den she came,
My princess in green armour...
She came in spite of the 10 million virus in my room....
She risked her life.... for me.... wahaha... o-kay, too much drama...

I juz wanna thank u Go Liew Chien 4 spending some time with me,
eventhough it was unhealthy 4 u...
I really appreciate it...
Gosh!!! I love you soooo much gal....

p/s: I didn die...

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Dusun Eco Resort!!!

2009-03-16T20:35:00.000-07:00

opens in d morn, closes in the evening....

us!!!!

scary!!!!

vandels wif a sense of humour....hehe.....

sisters!!!!

Our meeting place....

me n teddy...

me n june

weee......

haha....

my room mates...

my room...

jambatan tergantung... can see??

the high chalets...

the ''swimming pool''.... it really is....

the canteen, we had to take shoes off....

upon arrival...

Jus came bac from the youth outing in Bentong...

Dun noe how to describe it... It was kinda like a terrible-fun-scary-memoriable experience....

There were a lot of activities... The 1st one was rafting.. The guide gave us 8 long bamboos n 3 short bamboos n a few big plastic tumblers... We were supposed to build our own raft with dat stuff... Haha... It was definitely hard work, none of us in our team has ever built a raft b4... But finally we finished it... A frgile looking object called -the raft... With a lot of help from the guide...

We had to test it in the waters... I sat in the middle and couldn't stop screaming bcuz I thought it was going to overturn... But luckily it was quite stable n we sorta drifted around. haha...

The next activity was on the 2nd day... Which was the obstacle course... It was tough n used every muscle in my fat body... It was very high above the ground too, n I was absolutely terrified... But I forced my self to finish every obstacle bcuz I needed to overcome my fear of heghts... Every time I was high up, my kaki turned in jelly n was utterly useless... But with much screaming n shouting, I finished everthing!!! Yay!!! The last obstacle course was quite lame n stupid, we had to crawl, I repeat-CRAWL... under a very low BARBED wire on MUD WATER which level was quite high... Yuck!!! All of the guys wanted to be macho n everone crawled over... But the girls was pettrified juz looking at the colour of the water... haha... Bro Ho started scolding everyone hu didn wanted to go over... Not many ppl were encouraged... I was hesitant cuz I didn have any baju to wear anymore... Anyway, wat the heck, I crawled over... It was as disgusting as it looked... My baju n trackbottom was all muddy n smelly... yyyeeee.... But nothing a freezing cold bath can't take care of... Dat bath was really well earned...

In the evening was the flying fox... WEEEEE!!!!! juz 1 word-SYOK!!! But b4 we could reach the flying fox station, we needed to cross a very long n very high jambatan gantung... The terror was inmaginable. (I'm afraid of heights)... I dare not look down the whole time...I was busy trying not to die... When I reached the middle of the jambatan, suddenly wind started blowing... AAAAAA!!!! All of us screamed... It was SCARY!!! dun play play, we had to balance ourselves on onli 3 lines... My lags were shaking so bad, it's a miracle I'm still alive... Finally we reached d station. We had to put on safety jacket n a VERY smelly helmet... D smell was disgusting n made me wanna puke... Me n my sis were the first of the first batch to play the flying fox... After straping ourself on, we were asked to walk down to steps... which dissapeared n left a cliff... After walking down until we can go no further without starting to slide, I was very nervous n didn noe wat to do... Den things happened very quickly,

no. 1: My body was starting to slide 4ward.
no. 2: My feet were no longer touching the ground.

no. 3: Both of us were screaming... AAAAAAAAAAAA................................

Hahahaha.... 1 word again -SYOK!!!!

Well, the last activity was the night walk which sounded really spooky... If u thik dat it was jus like a stroll in the park in the dark, u r dead wrong...

We had to CLIMB up steep n slippery slops, b4 going down many tebing curam... N we had to be careful not to kill ourselves if we tripped the uncountable akar pokok dat were jutting out... N the guide warned us not to say words like hantu, harimau, n he said dat n matter wat happens or wat we see, juz keep going~ Every group had only a candle... N we cannot on our torch lights until we were told to... At 1st it was ok, cuz the path was quite easy, den after a while, it bcame ver steep n dark... N I thought I heard someone crying... I hope I heard wrong.......... We had to walk n climb quite fast to keep up... N it was REALLY dangerous... I'm not kidding... The path was so steep (bout 80 degrees), we had to hold to the ropes to get down... N the floor was muddy n slippery... After walking, climbing, sliding, slipping n tripping for 2 hours, we finaly made it out alive... whew... It was definitely a special experience, but I wouldn't go the 2nd time... NO!!!!

Well, the outing was full of mixed fillings, (mainly bcuz I was afraid of heights) but it was quite fun n not bad... I would definitely encourage u guys to go... especially the night walk~

Muahahahaha.........

Special request!!!

2009-03-06T01:34:00.001-08:00

Me n Celine!!!

This foto is a special request of Celine Ting Kwuong Lin. She black mailed me to put this in... Haha... I'm joking, Celine, dun kill me...

And to show u my umm.... ..... sincerity, I will write something in my blog to honour u... (p/s: she's still alive n kicking..)

Celine is a little pretty-not-so-innocent girl... haha... She was my training buddy at the 1 month training... According to her blog, she loves chcolate n marshmellows... Her english is terrible----ly good... N she dislikes chinese.. *high 5*... She is NOT fat as she always claim herself to be... She has this cute little laugh which goes like this: haha-snort..hahaha-snort...... (p/s: another lame joke, dun kill me) She pulled off my blanket when I sleep next to her n left me to die of the cold... haha... (another thing she didn noe)...

She lives in PJ n is VERY not poor.... She owns this 3-storey house n 5 cars... When I went to her house, I was like: WOW... this is unreal.... she has this silky slippery blanket which I nearly fell off while sitting on it... N, she beats me at all the card games, escpecially chor dai dee...
OMG, she won every round... At first, we were betting on sweets.. The person who lost has to gif the winner 2 sweets... I lost about 30++ eventually.. Gosh, talk about loser... So we decided to bet off something else b4 I lost my poor last single sweet. We took loads of accesessories out like hairclips, a hideous hairband n a dozen of watches, the person who lose must clip, wear something on themselves... N eventually again, both of my hands were full of barbie watches... Haha... Luckily, she lost too n had to wear two hideous hairbands at her hand, n one on her head, and many clips on her hair... wahaha.... I dun need to say how funny both of us looked, cuz only we noe how ridiculous we looked... Haha....

Lastly, I made a poem 4 u Celine...

When u say that you are fat,
I can't help but call you mad,
Cuz you are so pretty n so slim,
It's a wonder how u can be so thin.

We are fighting a spiritual war,
Supporting each other, never fall,
N wif Rachel by our side,
We have the hyper might.

We are like 3 musketeers,
Actually more like the 3 blind mice,
Cuz we laugh until our tears,
Leave us feeling all fuzzy n nice.

_end_

Wat happened... on test day...

2009-02-27T00:12:00.000-08:00

My test was just over...
Thank God, seriously... I 4got how it was like to study 4 a test... I made my already big head bigger...
I duno which moron actually invented the whole "form 4 is honeymoon year" thing. I really want to kick that person's as*. Did that person really think form 4 can be close to anything called a honeymoon year?? Honeymoons are supposed to be romantic, relaxing, carefree....

Reality check.. He-looo??
In form 4, we have A LOT of additional subjects...
Most of the subjects we haven't seen or studied in our lives...
There's this sucker called ADD MATHS...
All the subjects definitely got harder...
I'm not complaining, but hu seriously thought that form 4 is honeymoon year must wake up immediately... It's more like labour year....

Anyhow, I didn study until the LAST second... So I canot cover everything... But luckily I can do most of the questions. Those questions which I can't, there's this thing called paying back... It works as simply as this: If a person asks me a question, then I provide an answer. When I asks, he must pay back... Jus as simple as that. But technically, he was kinda copying all of my answers. Fortunately of cuz not bulat-bulat... and unfortunately, I chose the wrong partner, he was emptier than me, he didn study n I can't even trust his answers... Ish~ So technically, I didn meniru ecxept in 1 subject... thanks to someone...

The 3 science papers were ok, except physics... I think teacher will vomit blood when he marks my paper... N there will be a streak of dried blood on my answer sheet... I seriously suck at calculations since last year... acceleration, displacement, velocity.... Yikes!!! I think when I was born, the doctor told my mum :" ma'am, ur daughter will suck at physics by the look on her face, pls try not to kill her when she does..."

Chem n bio I can cope with, it was kinda comforting 4 me to be in control of my papers instead they controlling me... But, I must not say too much until I see my marks... I think I will not score an A..

D maths family- modern maths n add maths...
Modern maths was quite easy, my teacher was smiling like the alice in the wonderland cat (wateva it's name was)... She said "good"... Well, I guess it's a good sign to other ppl, but I still need to worry in order to be safe... I hate feeling dissapointed...
Add maths on the other hand.... I dunid to think at all, bcuz I noe I WILL FAIL!!! The FAIL word is screaming loud n proud... I juz have to brace myself n how badly I failed....

Languages:
Well, it was definitely better than the rest, bcuz of the English paper... btw, I'm not taking chinese... WAHAHAHAHAHA.... It was a memorable experience watching ppl taking chinese while I sit back, relax n read my storybook... HAHA... It's soooo cool, I've been hoping 4 this day to come.... I think the doctor also told my mum:" And ma'am, ur daughter is sensitive to chinese words, she will get a migrane if she reads too much chinese, so I advice u to teach her english if u want a normal child..." Well, my mum n dad knew no chinese... So after going to standard 1, I had to painfully learn every word n teach them when I come home... The weird thing is, I speak chinese to my mum since standard 2, and she replies in english... Once u learn chinese, it just sticks to ur head, n u find it the easiest to communicate with other ppl... Although chinese rocks, but chinese words is a totally different matter... I can't cope with chinese...

Well, the subject I tiru-ed is: still a secret in case someone hu is not supposed to read this IS reading this... Ya'll understand rite?? hehe... Anyway, it was so easy to tiru when the singing teacher was the penjaga in our class... U could practically wave the answers in front of him n he will be too busy to notice... Wat an idiot... N he keeps on saying, "children, I can see wat u are doing, dun think I canot see, It's just a test, y stress urself? I u duno then leave it.." Is he thinking properly?? Ppl in the 1st class dun BLANK an answer unless they dun have anymore time... Jeez... The whole class despises him!!

Actually, the whole reason I study my bis head off is bcuz of my mum, she's expecting me to surprise her with a full row of A's... Hu am I kiddin, it's imposible!!! The night after the test, she called me n told me dat it's OK I do badly in my 1st test... I didn noe wat to think... Well, at least she won't dream of the unreachable A's anymore, but I duwan to suck too badly, cuz I duwan to see her dissapointed of me... again.... no stress....

All ends quite well, except 4 add maths (I HATE U ADD MATHS!!!) The result I MAY get is most probably:
bio, chem, moral, bm, sj: B
Add maths, physics: C
English, modern maths: A

Conclusion is, I will suck at this test.....

_end_

Bola jaring

2009-02-09T22:29:00.000-08:00

Da place

Atiqah n Fatin

Camera shy (tipu punye la..)

Ahoy there, captain!!

Yee Wah, Yi Yin, Shun Gan

Hui Ching

Me n Pn. Ng..

Yikes.. nampak kaki ...

Pretty ladies minus me...

We rock....

.....

Tuesday
On Tuesday, I went 4 d bola jaring competition at someplace near panglima perang...

Haha... I was feeling excited n nauseated (as usual)... But I was pumped out n ready to go...

Our 1st match was against Sri Damai (I think)... Well, we were doing quite well... We won, I think it was 11-1... After dat match, we were sweating like mad... But unfortunately, we had to wait for another 1 n half hours b4 our 2nd match...

Fact no. 1: After sweating out, do NOT immediately rest and let ur sweat dry... Dat was our 1st mistake... After dat, we weren't in d mood to continue... Plus we were extremely tired...

Fact no. 2: Put SUNBLOCK!!! another stupid mistake I made... D sun was scorching us alive... I think if I stayed a little longer there, I can eat myself... D concequences of dis mistake is SUNBURN.. which will result to dark skin... Ishh.... Burned jelly.. YUCK~

Next match was against Seri Mahkota... They were better den d 1st 1... But fortunately we won... 7-4 I guess... By dat time we were completely worn out... All of us were tired and after having our lunch, we just hope we can slp.... Haha... Like pigs... Eat till full dy den wanna slp...

The 3rd match was 1 n half hours away... We entertained ourselves by listening to songs n slping on other ppl's bag... boring~ When it was time 4 our 3rd match, half of us were already in slumberland... I secretly hope dat we dun need to compete anymore... The adreline rush really can wipe u out.....

Under such exhausting circumstances it was not hard 4 us to lose... SPBSI beat us to 7-4 I think... damn... really frustrating... So we had to go on Wednesday 4 another match...

Wednesday

2day went for another match, teacher said if we lost dis match, we are disqualified... no pressure... So guess wat... We LOST!!! All thanks to d stupid referee hu only sees our team foul... We were like getiing fouls 4 times in a row... idot... Watever... we lost. I'll just have to deal with this fact and a few new bruises... All thx to dat GA...

Gud thing no.1: I get to skip skool....

Gud thing no. 2: I get to read Harry Potter n the deathly hallows....

Bad thing no.1: I canot catch up an my studies anymore...

Bad thing no. 2: I'm black n burned...

Bad Thing no. 3: My test is seriously near...

Conclusion: I'm screwed...................................................................................................................

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Skool skool skool....

2009-02-06T00:01:00.000-08:00

Life is starting to get busier...

Teachers give tonnes of skool homework n I think they secretly hope 4 us to break under the pressure n die...

And of cuz... The killer subject... ADD MATHS!!! (thunder n lightning flashes at the background)

I duno hu created add maths... But I sure do noe hu hates him or her...

Wat is that person's problem???? Why make life so difficult and complicated wif add maths???

It's making my cute little innocent mind think like psycopath...

According to miss Phua, my add maths teacher,

Kebaikan-kebaikan belajar add maths:
1) Apparently, we can cross the road faster... Wat the heck??? I dun mind if I cross slower, all that matters is my safety!!!

2) It will help us to think faster.... Erm... okay....

3) Unfortunately, I can't think of a third......

Anyway, other subjects are still ok I guess... But the amount of homework is absolutely frightening... Some one should sue the teachers 4 giving us so much homework!! It's student abuse I tell u... Skool is not dat depressing anymore (for the moment)...

N the person sitting next to me is absolutely a joke cracker... I can laugh my as* off if Im not careful, I've seldom seen ppl hu can crack wise-as* jokes... Wahaha... Terrrrific!!!!

I also have many skool kokorikulum activities... Actually I enjoy doing them... Playing bola jaring makes me feel like a normal carefree human being... I seriously need to work out, I've grown fatter during the chinese new year... haha....

Everything is going back to normal... I think...

I'm starting to feel normal again.... Thank God...

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The Depths of Deppression

2009-01-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

Today... Skool was depressing...
It started after recess...
Depression was slowly creeping me... The stress of the previous days finally caught up to me...
The pressure was almost unbearable...
I look around me... I can see many ppl so happy, my turmoil oblivious to everyone around me...
They laugh, they scream, they talk, they all seem unaffected by stress...
Or maybe they are just good at hiding it..
It seems like a very long time since I was bothered by stress... I coped very well last year considering leaving home n stuff...
But it caught up wif me... Now Im entangled by it's horrible pressure...
I can hardly breathe freely.... Im scared I'm gona crack under the pressure..
Nobody was there to save me from the bottomless pit of depression..
I remember once I told someone how....
I guess she 4got... Dat's the problem... Ppl tend to 4get... It creates many problem....
Den, I look at the person sitting next to me...
I think to myself....
Can she feel my depressing aura?? She keeps looking at me...
Wanting to srike up a conversation... Not noeing how....
Under normal circumstances, it won't be a problem 4 me to talk to anyone...
But not 2day.... Today I'm juz too tired... I can hardly breathe properly...
I feel a bit guilty...

This world is not cruel and hard.....
It's juz not as beautiful as we want it to be....

Sometimes.... We need to cry once in a while...
Emotion is something we canot avoid...
Even if we do overcome it...
It will catch up with us someday...
N tear us apart slowly....

We cannot blame ppl 4 not understanding us...
Maybe we dun wan them too...
Maybe we jus weren't clear enuf...

Things happen 4 a reason...
We juz need to accept it...

If we can't change things to make it wat we want...
we jus need to let it go...

I look at my watch...
It stopped at 11.05... The bell rings 4 the last time for the day... I pack my stuffs n leave....

_end_

The 1st week of skool

2009-01-10T22:41:00.000-08:00

The first week of skool was not utterly horrible.. (Thank God)
It's been a kinda busy week... Actually it's not, I juz 4got dat skl life is this hectic...
Anyway, as we all noe, during our form 4, there are some new subjects:
1) chemistry:
The teacher teaching us have absoutely no clue of wat chemistry is.... Suring class, sh juz talks to herself and asks us to copy notes... N the chemistry lab is soooo smelly, it smells of paint and poo...Yuck!! I hope we dun die of lung cancer...
Chem teacher: *N* itu apa?? Saya tak tau... (Wat the heck????)

2) bio:
The teacher teaching us bio is our form teacher... She is quite young n kinda destroyed our confidence the 1st time she stepped into ur class... Cuz she wouldn't speak eng.. N as all of us noe, our bio syllabus IS in eng... anyway, she didn turned out to be sooooo bad. We were kinda expecting something which is not english coming out from her mouth... Well, it's not too bad...

3) add maths:
The teacher really reaaally loves to talk man. Oh my Gosh.... She can say about anything under the sun.. Well, on the bright side, wat she says is quite interesting.... N no one died of boredom.. So I guess it OK... Let's jus hope she says wat she's supposed to say during the lessons...

4) fiziks:
The teacher belum masuk class yet. So I guess i can't say anything bout him... But I heard he's quite good.....

Well, the 1st few days were quite hectic, many ppl wanted to change classes... One of them was so desperate she even cried. Anyway, it's the second week... N I blive that everything will go back to normal soon.... I hope..

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I'm BACK!!!

2008-12-25T05:31:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone...
I'm back!!! Actually, I've been back 4 a seriously long time... But I didn have the tiniest chance to on9 due to some complications... So now oni jadi update my blog...
Anyway... I dun really have chance to write much now... So I'll juz write briefly...
The conclusion is:
The training was absolutely definitely fantastic.... N I met many ppl n we had crazy fun 2gether..
List of things I miss:
1) Celine!!
2) Rachelangelo!! (haha)
3) My roommates
4) The serving one's (except 1, u noe hu)
5) The nites
6) The everyday suasana (eventhough a bit boring but I like it)
5) The food (especially barley and soya)
6) N of cuz all the 14-16 years old sisters!!! (I LUV YOU GUYS!!!)

All the fotos are in my friendster profile.. Go check it out...

Gotta go... gonna write more next time... I guess I'll juz promise it to myself... hehe...

_end_

1 month... Feel nothing, miss nothing...

2008-11-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

Everybody was asking me The ULTIMATE question:
''What r ur plans during holidays?''

Ppl hu did asked me: Pn. Chiam, Edwin, n loads of ppl I 4got...
And I didn give a very clear answer... So now I'm gonna tell u ''Guys, I'm going away for 1 month for a training..'' Satisfied?? No?? Not my problem I guess... And by the way dun miss call or sms me during this period... I'm not allowed to use my fone... Haha.. So if u wanna ask something, wait until 15 dec 2008... I will be back (unless my plane crashes and I burn to death or drown in the south china sea...)...

So, I guess I should be missing my frens and stuffs... But,,,,, I guess it's just not worth it... I'm such a nobody dat if I pindah, they won't even notice I'm gone.... Well, maybe not so serious... But I guess NOONE is gonna miss me this month, maybe except my shoes... N my parents...

Soo, even if u do miss me (due to too much medication..).. U could let me noe, maybe I will consider the whole I-won't-miss-anything-or-anyone thing... But I definately will miss my family.... N junkfood.... N carbonated drinks... As u can clearly see, I'm missing non-living things (except my family)...

Sooo, wat I'm trying to say is.... I Will miss my frens.... HAHA... It's soo confusing that I myself is confused... LOL... Well, if I miss everybody sooo badly, it will only ruin everything, don't u think so?? So, the last conclusion is... I'm TRYING very hard not to miss everthing... Get it?? Sorry to confused the readers... haha... But I will oso miss my blog... I consider it a part of my daily routine now... So... BYE (for 1 month oni, no need get so emotional jane)...

And btw, I won't be updating my blog for 1 month... And when I do, it will be full of cobwebs n stink... Hehe... so once again, Bye!!!

_end_

Watch Out KOPERASI !!! Here I come!!!

2008-11-11T21:20:00.000-08:00

Before unpacking, doesn't seem much...
After unpacking... check it out..... ^^
Up view... Jus look at the FOOD...
Count the drinks!!! hehe.....
RM69 worth of junk food man!!!
Wahaha... dat's wat I'm talking about!!

2day was d last day I'm going to skool... I had RM45 worth of coupon which was going to expire the day after tmrw... N I juz couldn't let it go waste!!! I did ask a few ppl to go... But being their usual lazy self... They can't be bothered (so wat??)... 1 of them even 4got how to 6am in the mornin... dasyat!! Anyway... I knew it was no use pleading them... Eventhough I did try very hard... But it was a waste ofeffort... I was the only 1 stupid enough to go anyway (think of the coupon!!)...

So, at skool, luckily there was no perhimpunan thanks to monsoon season... The perhimpunan place was all wet and it was drizzling... Soo, I went to hide at the toilet (Lamest choice, but, wat other choices do I have??)... I waited till all the candidates taking their exam went into the hall, then only I came out... But, I did not noe where to go... PJK room was locked, bengkel was closed too, Besides the place to use my coupon was still closed... And I was like an insane person wandering aimlessly in the skool compound.... So, I waited n waited, n waited n waited.... N when the boredom was unbearable, my savior appeared... PN. TOO!!! She told me that the library was opened.... YaY!!! If I walked around for another 10 more minutes, I would break down n scream till my lungs burst, n that won't be a pretty sight...

D library was empty, except for 1 indian boy readin newspaper... N it was kinda spooky, cuz the lights behind were off... So I was in the library until 9 something, then my stomach started growling.. Uh-oh... Not a good sign... I get angry n pissed of very easily when I'm hungry.... So, I went down to the canteen to eat... N they still haven't change d menu... Well, wat did I expect?? Shark fin's soup n abalone?? After eating, I went to check out the kedai buku, it's still closed (Haiyo, akak,bila nak buka??) ... So I went back to resume my reading...

After 1 hour, I went down again to check on the kedai buku... Well, I still see the padlock, so I guess it's closed... Ish, so frustrating..... Then, I webt to find Pn. Chiam... But, she was busy talking wif another teacher, I passed her office many times, n I was starting to look like a stalker... So, wat can I do but to go back to the library...
Things I found out there:
1) The library teacher was actually very kind n soft-spoken, not the man-eater I thought she
was... ( I was quite paranoid)
2) The librarians in duty dun come till 8 something...
3) during SPM n STPM, the library is empty... haha...
4) there was a librarian hu could finish the rubik's cube very fast... (After finishing, he boasted in
a loud voice, so I looked up and saw the cube...) LOL...
5) the indian boy may not be human bcuz he stayed in the library all the time n didn move a
muscle...

After finishing 2 books, I went to check on the kedai buku, by that time it was already 11
something... Haiz, still not open... So I went to stalk, I mean cari Pn. Chiam... N guess wat, she wasn't in her office... AARGH!!!! I felt like hitting someone... (oops, sorry, no violence...) I met a KH teacher, she was one of the judges in the cooking competition... She looked surprised to see me, den she asked me to get my coupons from the bengkel... (was she thinking of using my coupon??)... So, I went n claimed my prize, which was another coupon... WOW!! RM8 for one person... N I had three to give to my frens (which I can't see anymore)... Dat means I have RM69 worth coupon... hahahaha....

And I went to check on the kedai buku again... (btw, it is d place to redeem stuffs wif coupon..) I already promised to redeem some stuffs for my sis... OMG!! it was still closed... Dat means I can't use the coupons?? That means me coming to skool all alone n looking like an insane person
was all a waste?? OH dear.... Now I really wanna hit someone.. hard...
But I remembered the teacher telling me bout redeeming items at the koperasi... Well, I decided to try my luck... No harm done... And the boy tugas-ing said I COULD use my coupons there... WOOOO-HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I wanna hug some one!!! (I'm not a sane-mind-person)...

But, suddenly I thought of wat I could redeem...
The things I could redeem:
1) Soft drinks (cans)
2) More soft drinks (bottles)
3) snacks (gigabytes n some biscuits..)
4) Some more drinks (packets)
5) PJ shirt for my sis n fail peribadi n other stuffs she needs....
6) lencana...
7) Soft drinks (again..)

Wow... the whole place was bursting wif carbonated fluid... So the kind boy did recommended some things for me to redeem.. N I thank him for that.... Things I redeemed:
1) 2 cans, 7 bottles, 12 packets of drinks ( I could practically drown in them..)
2) 2 packets of gigabytes (chocolate n strawberry.. hehe...)
3) biscuits n snacks from munchy's...
4) 6 lencana
5) stuffs my sis need after her transfer to Air Putih...

And so, after hours of counting and adding and plussing and timing, we finally berjaya use up RM69... whew... The boy n his frens were more nervous then me.. haha... I saw his hand shaking.. N I don'y blame him... It was probably the biggest buisness he has ever done... haha...
So I went out the skool wif many plastic bags in my hand... N I looked like I jst came back from the biggest shopping spree in the country... Ppl were casting weird glances at me... haha... I dun care.. As long as there's food, there's me.... wahaha...

So, I went back and unpacked the stuffs I got... N I took a few pictures... N I was very proud n satisfied of my self, duno y... (my mind is still not very stable...) So check out the fotos!!! wahaha.. dun envy me... ^^

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Old School

2008-11-06T21:44:00.000-08:00

Yee Peng, Siaw Wei, me n Shi Teng... YAY!!!
Stairs outside.... hoho.....^^
Candid shot... hehe... see d 2 person at d left...
Siaw Wei, Shi Teng, Yee Peng n Boon Kee...
Chat chat outside... waaa... I see a hp.... haha...
Papan notis outside.....
I miss dis place....
Boon BOon... jia jia de.... haha....
Shi Teng n Siaw Wei.... wif spooky background..hehe...
SpooKy!!! Taken at 5.30pm... wif cheap fone camera... haha...
Rack Book in pusat sumber.....
pusat sumber counter in SMKTP..... (wif Yee Peng)
ooo... blur... Boon Kee Siaw Wei n Boon Boon...
Yee Peng n me....
Yee Peng, Shi Teng n me...
Yay!! Frenz foreva!!! ^^
Siaw Wei... haha... syok sendiri
Boon Kee n Wei Xin
Yee Peng n Boon Boon

The day before yesterday, I decided to visit my previous school... It was a last minute idea N I didn have anything to wear... ( My black skool shoes were in Kuantan)... Anyway, my fren told me to wear PJ shirt n pants.... So I followed her idea...

The next morning, I followed my sister to skool, we took the skool bus... It's been quite a long time since I ride dat skool bus... N I still hated every moment of it... The driver doesn't bother about the comfort of his passengers... The bus which had a maximum capasity of 45 people had at least 60 or 70 people!!! N there was this unpleasent smell, perfume smell (which stank), bubblegum smell n sweat smell... Gross!!!

When we reached skool, I was quite nervous and did not had the slightest idea where to go.... Luckily I found some of my good frens nearby the entrance... They were Zhi Shien, Joanne, Yi Lian n See Xian (I have to list them all out to prove I still remember them)... The 1st person hu saw me was Yi Lian... She gasped and said "Jane Li!"... I was like "duh~ hu else?"... I didn think I had change so much.. had I?? They were saying that I was so thin now ( really??)... N we talked n laughed for a while... Then I asked them where were the others.. They led me to the hall in the new block... I almost fainted... It was full of form 3 students... And then I thought of Air Putih which had the opposite amount... Haha... I greeted some of them and luckily they still rememberd me... And Wai Nee was looking at me like she saw a ghost... (She was gaping at me with her mouth open!!).. Of cuz, I said hello to her n saw Jia Sin sitting all by herself... So I went to talk to her 4 a while... She seemed surprise to see me... But then hu would not?? They hadn't saw me for 10 months... And I missed them all... Every single one of them...

Next, I went to find my form 2 form teacher, Pn. Susi... And she said "Jane Li!!" (what else could they say??) "Kamu sudah tinggi lagi!" (Oh no...) haha... at least she still knew hu I was... Then I decided to go to the library... When I opened the library door... Everyone looked at me and shouted "Jane Li!!!" (again) hahaha.... I was sooo glad to see them... All of them was starting to ask questions at the same time... And I was soo blur.... All I got to do was to stand there and looked stupid... After dat, I offered to help them tugas in the library... But, there was nobody in the library except us... And we were like talking, laughing and shouting... Luckily the teacher didn came in or we would get into trouble... hehe... Then me amd my frens Siaw Wei, Shi Teng n Wee Nee decided to eat luch outside the skool... Wee Nee had some family problem n it was quite serious cuz she was crying while she told us... And she used up 10 helai tissue... I didn noe wat to do except comfort her n lend her some more tissue...(Poor thing...)

After we had our lunch, we went back to the library... N they were quite busy preparing 4 the malam PPS (which I canot go, unfortunately...) Well, they did ask me to go... haha... I can't...
So, what we did in the library the whole day included this:
taking photos: 40 minutes... (they are crazy...)
singing: duno... (I didn sing)
talking:98%... (haha... when there's Boon Kee, nothing is imposibble!!)
laughing: All the time....

And I got to tugas at the counter, which is my favourite place to tugas... I duno y I like the counter sooo much.. (haha...) And my frens were squatting behind the counter taking fotos and videos... It was crazy... And we were laughing sooo loud, the students in the library had asked us to keep quiet... HAHA... How ironic... Students asking the librarians to keep quiet in the library...
Everyting was so nice and fun... We were in the library until 5pm... half an hpur b4 we left, we took some more pictures (again)... N some of them were really really syok sendiri (especially Boon Kee..) We took picture behind the book racks, infront the book racks, even outside the library... haha... They really like taking photos...

And during my trip home, I sat with Siaw Wei in the bus, and being her ususl self (sampat..) She had many gossips for me... haha... So we talked n talked n talked in the bus... I didn realize how much I missed her... until now... She always had the ability to make me laugh no matter what... and I kinda miss someone who knows me for hu I am... Well, things had to move on.. At least I got a chance to meet up wif her...
So, I would like to make a list of frens whom i met yesterday... So that I will not 4get...
Yi Lain, Zhi Shien, Joanne, See Xian, Pei San, Shi Ling, Guat Sin, Michelle, Wen Dee, Sih Yoong, Jing Wen, Hui Ting, Wai Nee, Jia Sin, Shi Ling, Jia Teng, Boon Kee, Siaw Wei, Wei Xin, Yee Peng, Shi Teng, Edwin, Wee Nee, Pieng Seong, Su Yan, Pei Boon, Gracia n Chia Boon.
And to those hu I didn write down, I'm sorry, It's not I've 4got u all... It's juz of my stupid short term memory... I've been thinking very hard, and this is all I remember... Sorry...

I would like to thank ALL my frens for making my trip back so wonderful and unforgettable... N those hu still remembered me, thanks too.... Thank u guys sooo sooo much... I'll never ever 4get u guys!!! Cheers to ALL MY FRENS!!!!!!!! ^^

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Code G.R.E.E.N

2008-11-04T22:57:00.000-08:00

U guys probably wonder y I love GREEN sooo much...

Well, to tell u the truth, I dun actually noe... I mean, how can a person knows y he or she likes or dislikes something?? Hmm... let's see... I started liking this colour when I was about standard 5..

I told myself dat I must not change my favourite colour anymore... In fact, I sorta promise myself dat green is my one and only favourite colour.... Kind of immature I noe... But I changed my favourite colour soo many times during the last few years, I got tired of changing n decided to stick to only one colour... GREEN!!!

I absolutely LOVE this colour... N I don't regret 4 choosing it as my favourite colour... Don't u guys just LOVE green?? Well, maybe not as crazily as me, but regard it as a nice colour...

Green things I have:

1 green watch, 2 green bags, a pair of green slippers, 2 green rubber bands, 2 green hairbands, 1 green pants, 1 green pencil, 1 green pen, 5 green shirts, all the hangers in my cupboard are green, 2 green water bottles, 1 green earphones n 1 big green planet called earth....

Actually, there are still quite many, n I'm lazy to list them all out... Juz believe me when I say I love this colour... Did you noe dat green is good for our eyes too?? In fact, if u r too stressed out studying, u can look at something green, and instantly, u will feel more relaxed... I'm not kidding (seriously)... N green is also the colour of the grass, the trees, the leaves n many of my stuffs...

I wished I had green eyes n can highlight my hair green... Dat would look sooo cool... Haha... Imagine asking my mum for permission to do those.... Imagine the earth without the colour green... It would be soo dull, boring n old...

Green represents something fresh, new n full of life... Maybe dat's wat attracts me so much...
Thank God I'm not colour blind... And I can see and appreciate this colour... My frens think I'm nuts n always scold me for liking green sooo much...(wat's their problem?? It's not wrong...)

And when I go shopping wif them, I buy green things.... Haha... Wat?? I'm freaking u out?? Well, at least I have a favourite colour!!! Unlike some of them.... GREEN is absolutely fantastic!!!

Next time when u wanna buy something for me or ask me wat my favourite colour is... STOP...

U should noe it... It's GREEN!!! N I'm not changing it... Not in a million years.......

YaY!! Cheers to GREEN!!!! ^^

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Penjara Penor... NOT!!!

2008-11-04T02:13:00.000-08:00

Last night, Wei Wah chat wif ma on MSN... She asked me to ganti her place to the Penjara trip...
She said she couldn't go n asked me to go to teman Viek Vian... I gladly agreed...(of cuz, wat else can I do tmrw??)..So, I packed my bags n hoped 4 tmrw to come quickly....

In skool... Well, everything was going quite well except that I 4got to tell Miss Big Boss Pn Wong about the fact of me taking Wei Wah's place.... All was well.... UNTIL they ambil nama...
Actually I didn noe wat was going to happen actually... I just figured out they would let me go cuz Wei Wah had paid the money 4 the trip... When Mr. Tang called Wei Wah's name... I raised my hand n said I ganti her... The doubt on Mr' Tang's face worried me... " This can't be happening!!" I thought... But it happened anyway...

Mr. Tang asked Pn. Wong if I could ganti... BUT, our beloved Pn. Wong said NO.... Oh my God!!! NO???!!!! Then I came to skool 4 wat?? The 2nd time???? At dat moment I imagined Pn. Wong as a big n nice punching bag... How I would like to punch her in the face dat moment... But she n Mr. Tang asked me to stay n 'discussed' something wif me....

Their discussion:
Pn. W: Y u didn tell us earlier?? (she said in chinese cuz her english...)
Me: I didn noe until yesterday night!!! (I said in english juz to make her irritated... haha...I'm soo bad)
Pn. W: But u should have told us earlier!!! (Did she 4got to wear her hearing aid or something??)
Me: I told u I didn noe till last night!! U can call up my penjaga n ask her.. U can even call up my
mum!!
Pn. W: Mr. Tang, wat do u think? U say can den can. (Wat??!! Y can't SHE say can? Ridiculous!!)
Mr. T: I not the ketua, u r the ketua... U make the desision la...
(At that point, u can imagined how stricken I was, listening the two teachers.. Gosh...)
Pn.W: cikgu, mari sini s'kjp..
Pn. Anita: apa?
Pn. W: Dia nak ganti boleh tak??
Pn. A: Kamu ada surat?? (duh- I juz noe last nite, remember???)
Me: tak ada..
Pn. A: Tak ada surat den tak boleh la...
Viek Vian n Su yin: Yor!! cikgu ar... bagi dia pergi lo!!! Dia last nite saja tau ma... Cikgu ar!!!
Pn. A, Pn. W, Mr. T: Tak boleh!!!

Haiz.. I knew dis would happen some dreams were juz too good to be true... They shouldn't have called me back the 1st place... They took my hopes n threw it to the ground n kinda step on it.. HARD.... So, I was left back at skool wif Boon Ying... Oh No.....
So, we watch a malay ghost movie called 'Jangan Pandang Belakang' which was kinda lame...
B'cuz:
1) The ghost was not at all scary... It was totally a poor girl dressed up badly wif mud on her face.
2) We can predict where the ghost will appear next... which was 90% true...
3) The ghost kept clawing n moving her hands... Which was totally lame...
4) I was only scared of the music...

Number of times I was:
laughing at the lameness of the show: uncountable
frightened: 1
scared: 20% which was very little cuz I'm a scaredy cat...
yawning: many
wish they would play something else: The whole time...

But anyway, malay ghost movies r NOT supposed to be dat scary... There were a few times I jumped in my seat... Luckily boon ying was sitting wif me... Even luckier we kinda jumped at the same time... haha... Not so lucky, the row behind us was empty... N the title was.........
So, the movie ended, n we went to the library to read books... I manage to finish 3... Wahaha...
But I suffered the consequenses... When I went out of the library, everything looked too bright n shiny... My eyes were squinting n fighting to focus... I saw everything very blurry.... Dat's wat you get reading three books in one shot....

Well, I made it home safely, n spent the rest of the day napping... (I was more tired than I thought)... Well, at least I did watched a ghost movie..... Anyway, I would like to thank Boon Ying 4 accompanying me the whole time.... She was not so bad as I thought she was.... Cheers to her!!!

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Skool 2day

2008-11-03T01:48:00.000-08:00

B4 d PMR, the whole form 3 were studying crazily... Students were seen with book in their hands d whole time.. Even while eating...
The activity in skool b4 PMR was:
1) study
2) chat
3) study
4) study again...

But after d PMR everything is a different story...
Some of my friends didn come to skool frm the week after PMR until now....
But during the week after PMR, some students stil go to skool (I dun have the slightest idea y)...
The number of students decreased day by day...
Until now,
the number of form 3 students goin to skool: less then 20 (seriously)
the number of form 3 students not goin to skool: uncountable...

Well... me... I go one day skip the next... N to tell the truth I dun noe y I went to skool 2day...
It must be the craziest n stupidest action I have done!!!
Ppl hu went to skool 2day: Boon Ying, Connie, Melvin, Andy, Kar King, Jen Yeu n Jun Yuan (+me)
All the guys dissapeared b4 the assembly... N the gals, well..... only 3...(yup, kesian)
Wat I did in skool 2day: played chinese checkers wif myself (1 min 38 sec)
helped Pn. Ng kira yucky shirts n jersey in PJK room (1 hour n 45 min)
walk around aimlessly wif connie (10 min)
read books in library (2 hours)
buy things in koperasi (very long, thanks to connie)
Well, it was not DAT boring, but I kinda miss my frens hu was too lazy to go to skool.... Anyway, luckily there was Connie hu although was QUITE annoying, but made it through the day wif me alive n well.....

During assembly... The form 3 were asked to stay back... N the usual person gave her her instructions... Pn. Wong... yuck.... N she was like shouting and screamin at us to go to d dewan...
Well, I gt other plans 4 myself... If u follow her instructions, either u die of boredom or commit suicide b4 u die of boredom... Which is basically the same....
So, I ponteng to the bilik PJK n asked Pn. Ng to give me something to do... (I must have looked desperate, cus she agreed)... But, the job was not wat I call extremely exciting...

THE JOB: count all the old stock of football jerseys n shirts n yucky socks n etc...
The smell was not at all pleasant n the dust was going to consume me alive...
Luckily Connie rushed in to save the day!!! YaY!!!
She offered to help me (well, actually I kinda force her to do it)... N we had to take piles of old, dusty n mouldy stuffs frm the cupboard n count them.... Jeezzz.....

So after we finished our icky jobs, I belanja Connie makan donut.. (see, I'm sooo nice)
Den we went to the library to spend the rest of our day... Well, "Enchanted" was being played in bilik tayangan, so Connie went to watch, n I stayed at the library cuz I've seen dat movie b4...
N things were like dat until the end of skool....

Well, quite many things to write about a skool day wif no best frens u see....
So, wat I'm tryin to say is dat, we should not always depend on our best frens... Sometimes, u could be surprise how friends can brighten up a boring seriously skool day... So.. CHEERS to them!!! They may not be the best, but dey certainly do their job well...

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LOVE vs LUST

2008-11-02T03:22:00.000-08:00

All of us always hear this 3 words
" I love you"
But has anyone wondered what exactly IS love???
I'm sorry to tell u dat the feeling you have towards the opposite sex is NOT love, it's juz lust...
So you must be wondering, den wat exactly is love???

LOVE: is a simple n strong emotion u feel towards someone u REALLY care about.. I'm not talking bout ur boyfren or girlfren.. I'm talking about ur parents... Ur pets... Ur bestest frens.... Actually, love is a simple emotion... It's juz dat ppl like to makr things so complicated and cause themselves to suffer... Love is undying...
How to show dat you LOVE someone...
U still love him or her even though she or he farts n burps in front of u.. U dun feel ashamed...
U still love him or her even though he or she has white hair and many wrinkles on her face...
U still love him or her even though u fought n quarreled n refuse to apologize...
Dat, my fren.. is called LOVE....
It's mostly between children n parents, husband n wives..

On the other hand, lust is a more complicated emotion....
LUST: a longing for the person u like, always thinking about him or her, wanting to hold his or her hand, feeling ur heart beat faster whenever u see him or her.... LUST is temporarily...
Maybe it can last 4 a few weeks, a few months, maybe a few years... But it will pass...
Lust can be used during:
U wan an ice-cream.
U wan he or her to call or sms u.
U wan him or her to think about you all the time.
U desperately wan dat new bag u have been eying 4 a very long time...
Dat, my fren is lust.....

BUT, the BIGGEST difference between love n lust is dat...
Love lasts 4 a really really very seriosly long time.... I'm not kidding...
So next time u think dat u love someone think twice!!! The feeling between 2 person during their teenage years I really doubt is love... So, next time u wanna tell a guy or a girl u "LOVE" them, think twice... Or u can juz say u "LIKE" them...
Now, dat's much much better rite????

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Handball

2008-11-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

Well, I took part in a handball competition... (at Tengku Afzan)
Actually I didn have the teeny-weeny, slightest idea how to play handball...
Well, it turned out dat it was easier than all d games I played in my whole life...
The 1st time I saw this game was during the olympics... There was 2 goals and a small blurry object which I hardly can see clearly called the +ball+..
Actually, the game was going too fast n the speed of the ball was crazy...
Ppl were running n throwing something, and b4 I knew it, it was 10:15...
Well, it was the olympics, n they were profesionals...
And our standard was not what u call high...
So after watching a youtube clip about handball with my fren, I was quite worried and my knowledge about handball increased only 7%...
I thought everyone had to leap in front of the goal n somehow miraculously throw the ball in...
It was not so bad until I saw the thrower landing not on his feet... It was like a hollywood stunt and not wat I call graceful....

Anyway, I decided to give it a try (actually I daftar dy n pai seh to cancel)...
So, I went on wif my crazy plan.... Luckily I was not alone.... Thank God 4 my fren hu was crazy enuf to join me juz to get a certificate....
B4 the match, I, as usual, had my usual-worried-bad-feeling-which-causes-me-to-throw-up kind of feeling... And believe me... I was worried sick to my stomach....

D moment the green shirt referee blew the whistle, my mind was in zero-space...
My player instincts took over (thank God, or I would look like a lost chicken running across Jalan Air Putih)...
Well, what happened next I was not so sure, and b4 I knew it, the score was 3;o...
YaY!! (we were 3 by d way) So d next 2 matches went on well... N we won all matches and was qualified 4 d finals.... Yi-PEE!!!!

BUT....
My happy self-satisfied feelings didn last long after I found out hu our next opponent was...
It was Viek Vian n Wei Wah!! N believe me, their animal instincts were greater than a mother tiger.... N with both of them on the same team...... (too scary to describe)
Well, but things had to move on... So wif 11% determination n 89% worries... The game started...
Things were not looking so well during the first few minutes they had already scored a few goals... N we were a big fat 0...
Not dat it was unexpected or wat.... Well, what was REALLY UNEXPECTED was, we managed to score one goal..... G-O-A-L!!!!!!!!

N.........So.................
After uncountable times of falling n rolling on the wet grassy field... D final score was....
*1:4*...... (O-K.. We were the 1.. So wat??)

I did counted the times I fell n times I rolled___
Times I fell=4
Times I rolled=2
Times I felt like fainting= uncountable
Times I felt proud of myself=1 ( well mayb nt so few, but I duwana luk so syok sendiri)

So,,,, the match ended, N we got 2nd place...
"Well," I thought to myself, "Not bad 4 a first time player"...
N during the ceremony I got a silver trophy.... Woo-Hooo!!! It's been a long time since I won any trophies... Since standard 4....

But, u noe, winning isn't everything.. The purpose this competition was held was actually to mengeratkan hubungan pelajar..... So, it kinda work, and I found a few frens hu was very nice... Yay!! Cheers to them!!! ^^

List of ppl I would like to thank:
1) the person hu dared to join dis competition wif me, even though we both had no idea bout bola baling...
2) the kind GPK koko of SMK Tengku Afzan hu gave a wonderful speech to us....
3) The new fren I met hu was so nice to us n did made us feel left out or lost....
4) the teachers frm air putih hu took care of us during d competition...
5) the green shirt referee hu burped VERY loudly n brighten up my day...

THANK YOU GUYS SOOO MUCH!!!!!^^

So, I will end here.... thx for reading even though u felt like sleeping in the middle of my blog...

THANKS TO THE READERS TOO!!!! Give them a BIG round of applause!!!!!

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