Skool skool skool....

Life is starting to get busier...


Teachers give tonnes of skool homework n I think they secretly hope 4 us to break under the pressure n die...


And of cuz... The killer subject... ADD MATHS!!! (thunder n lightning flashes at the background)


I duno hu created add maths... But I sure do noe hu hates him or her...

Wat is that person's problem???? Why make life so difficult and complicated wif add maths???

It's making my cute little innocent mind think like psycopath...

According to miss Phua, my add maths teacher,

Kebaikan-kebaikan belajar add maths:
1) Apparently, we can cross the road faster... Wat the heck??? I dun mind if I cross slower, all that matters is my safety!!!

2) It will help us to think faster.... Erm... okay....

3) Unfortunately, I can't think of a third......


Anyway, other subjects are still ok I guess... But the amount of homework is absolutely frightening... Some one should sue the teachers 4 giving us so much homework!! It's student abuse I tell u... Skool is not dat depressing anymore (for the moment)...

N the person sitting next to me is absolutely a joke cracker... I can laugh my as* off if Im not careful, I've seldom seen ppl hu can crack wise-as* jokes... Wahaha... Terrrrific!!!!

I also have many skool kokorikulum activities... Actually I enjoy doing them... Playing bola jaring makes me feel like a normal carefree human being... I seriously need to work out, I've grown fatter during the chinese new year... haha....

Everything is going back to normal... I think...

I'm starting to feel normal again.... Thank God...






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The Depths of Deppression

Today... Skool was depressing...
It started after recess...
Depression was slowly creeping me... The stress of the previous days finally caught up to me...
The pressure was almost unbearable...
I look around me... I can see many ppl so happy, my turmoil oblivious to everyone around me...
They laugh, they scream, they talk, they all seem unaffected by stress...
Or maybe they are just good at hiding it..
It seems like a very long time since I was bothered by stress... I coped very well last year considering leaving home n stuff...
But it caught up wif me... Now Im entangled by it's horrible pressure...
I can hardly breathe freely.... Im scared I'm gona crack under the pressure..
Nobody was there to save me from the bottomless pit of depression..
I remember once I told someone how....
I guess she 4got... Dat's the problem... Ppl tend to 4get... It creates many problem....
Den, I look at the person sitting next to me...
I think to myself....
Can she feel my depressing aura?? She keeps looking at me...
Wanting to srike up a conversation... Not noeing how....
Under normal circumstances, it won't be a problem 4 me to talk to anyone...
But not 2day.... Today I'm juz too tired... I can hardly breathe properly...
I feel a bit guilty...

This world is not cruel and hard.....
It's juz not as beautiful as we want it to be....

Sometimes.... We need to cry once in a while...
Emotion is something we canot avoid...
Even if we do overcome it...
It will catch up with us someday...
N tear us apart slowly....

We cannot blame ppl 4 not understanding us...
Maybe we dun wan them too...
Maybe we jus weren't clear enuf...

Things happen 4 a reason...
We juz need to accept it...

If we can't change things to make it wat we want...
we jus need to let it go...




I look at my watch...
It stopped at 11.05... The bell rings 4 the last time for the day... I pack my stuffs n leave....




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The 1st week of skool

The first week of skool was not utterly horrible.. (Thank God)
It's been a kinda busy week... Actually it's not, I juz 4got dat skl life is this hectic...
Anyway, as we all noe, during our form 4, there are some new subjects:
1) chemistry:
The teacher teaching us have absoutely no clue of wat chemistry is.... Suring class, sh juz talks to herself and asks us to copy notes... N the chemistry lab is soooo smelly, it smells of paint and poo...Yuck!! I hope we dun die of lung cancer...
Chem teacher: *N* itu apa?? Saya tak tau... (Wat the heck????)

2) bio:
The teacher teaching us bio is our form teacher... She is quite young n kinda destroyed our confidence the 1st time she stepped into ur class... Cuz she wouldn't speak eng.. N as all of us noe, our bio syllabus IS in eng... anyway, she didn turned out to be sooooo bad. We were kinda expecting something which is not english coming out from her mouth... Well, it's not too bad...

3) add maths:
The teacher really reaaally loves to talk man. Oh my Gosh.... She can say about anything under the sun.. Well, on the bright side, wat she says is quite interesting.... N no one died of boredom.. So I guess it OK... Let's jus hope she says wat she's supposed to say during the lessons...

4) fiziks:
The teacher belum masuk class yet. So I guess i can't say anything bout him... But I heard he's quite good.....

Well, the 1st few days were quite hectic, many ppl wanted to change classes... One of them was so desperate she even cried. Anyway, it's the second week... N I blive that everything will go back to normal soon.... I hope..




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I'm BACK!!!

Hey everyone...
I'm back!!! Actually, I've been back 4 a seriously long time... But I didn have the tiniest chance to on9 due to some complications... So now oni jadi update my blog...
Anyway... I dun really have chance to write much now... So I'll juz write briefly...
The conclusion is:
The training was absolutely definitely fantastic.... N I met many ppl n we had crazy fun 2gether..
List of things I miss:
1) Celine!!
2) Rachelangelo!! (haha)
3) My roommates
4) The serving one's (except 1, u noe hu)
5) The nites
6) The everyday suasana (eventhough a bit boring but I like it)
5) The food (especially barley and soya)
6) N of cuz all the 14-16 years old sisters!!! (I LUV YOU GUYS!!!)

All the fotos are in my friendster profile.. Go check it out...

Gotta go... gonna write more next time... I guess I'll juz promise it to myself... hehe...

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1 month... Feel nothing, miss nothing...

Everybody was asking me The ULTIMATE question:
''What r ur plans during holidays?''

Ppl hu did asked me: Pn. Chiam, Edwin, n loads of ppl I 4got...
And I didn give a very clear answer... So now I'm gonna tell u ''Guys, I'm going away for 1 month for a training..'' Satisfied?? No?? Not my problem I guess... And by the way dun miss call or sms me during this period... I'm not allowed to use my fone... Haha.. So if u wanna ask something, wait until 15 dec 2008... I will be back (unless my plane crashes and I burn to death or drown in the south china sea...)...

So, I guess I should be missing my frens and stuffs... But,,,,, I guess it's just not worth it... I'm such a nobody dat if I pindah, they won't even notice I'm gone.... Well, maybe not so serious... But I guess NOONE is gonna miss me this month, maybe except my shoes... N my parents...

Soo, even if u do miss me (due to too much medication..).. U could let me noe, maybe I will consider the whole I-won't-miss-anything-or-anyone thing... But I definately will miss my family.... N junkfood.... N carbonated drinks... As u can clearly see, I'm missing non-living things (except my family)...

Sooo, wat I'm trying to say is.... I Will miss my frens.... HAHA... It's soo confusing that I myself is confused... LOL... Well, if I miss everybody sooo badly, it will only ruin everything, don't u think so?? So, the last conclusion is... I'm TRYING very hard not to miss everthing... Get it?? Sorry to confused the readers... haha... But I will oso miss my blog... I consider it a part of my daily routine now... So... BYE (for 1 month oni, no need get so emotional jane)...

And btw, I won't be updating my blog for 1 month... And when I do, it will be full of cobwebs n stink... Hehe... so once again, Bye!!!




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Watch Out KOPERASI !!! Here I come!!!

Before unpacking, doesn't seem much...
After unpacking... check it out..... ^^
Up view... Jus look at the FOOD...
Count the drinks!!! hehe.....
RM69 worth of junk food man!!!
Wahaha... dat's wat I'm talking about!!

2day was d last day I'm going to skool... I had RM45 worth of coupon which was going to expire the day after tmrw... N I juz couldn't let it go waste!!! I did ask a few ppl to go... But being their usual lazy self... They can't be bothered (so wat??)... 1 of them even 4got how to 6am in the mornin... dasyat!! Anyway... I knew it was no use pleading them... Eventhough I did try very hard... But it was a waste ofeffort... I was the only 1 stupid enough to go anyway (think of the coupon!!)...

So, at skool, luckily there was no perhimpunan thanks to monsoon season... The perhimpunan place was all wet and it was drizzling... Soo, I went to hide at the toilet (Lamest choice, but, wat other choices do I have??)... I waited till all the candidates taking their exam went into the hall, then only I came out... But, I did not noe where to go... PJK room was locked, bengkel was closed too, Besides the place to use my coupon was still closed... And I was like an insane person wandering aimlessly in the skool compound.... So, I waited n waited, n waited n waited.... N when the boredom was unbearable, my savior appeared... PN. TOO!!! She told me that the library was opened.... YaY!!! If I walked around for another 10 more minutes, I would break down n scream till my lungs burst, n that won't be a pretty sight...

D library was empty, except for 1 indian boy readin newspaper... N it was kinda spooky, cuz the lights behind were off... So I was in the library until 9 something, then my stomach started growling.. Uh-oh... Not a good sign... I get angry n pissed of very easily when I'm hungry.... So, I went down to the canteen to eat... N they still haven't change d menu... Well, wat did I expect?? Shark fin's soup n abalone?? After eating, I went to check out the kedai buku, it's still closed (Haiyo, akak,bila nak buka??) ... So I went back to resume my reading...

After 1 hour, I went down again to check on the kedai buku... Well, I still see the padlock, so I guess it's closed... Ish, so frustrating..... Then, I webt to find Pn. Chiam... But, she was busy talking wif another teacher, I passed her office many times, n I was starting to look like a stalker... So, wat can I do but to go back to the library...
Things I found out there:
1) The library teacher was actually very kind n soft-spoken, not the man-eater I thought she
was... ( I was quite paranoid)
2) The librarians in duty dun come till 8 something...
3) during SPM n STPM, the library is empty... haha...
4) there was a librarian hu could finish the rubik's cube very fast... (After finishing, he boasted in
a loud voice, so I looked up and saw the cube...) LOL...
5) the indian boy may not be human bcuz he stayed in the library all the time n didn move a
muscle...

After finishing 2 books, I went to check on the kedai buku, by that time it was already 11
something... Haiz, still not open... So I went to stalk, I mean cari Pn. Chiam... N guess wat, she wasn't in her office... AARGH!!!! I felt like hitting someone... (oops, sorry, no violence...) I met a KH teacher, she was one of the judges in the cooking competition... She looked surprised to see me, den she asked me to get my coupons from the bengkel... (was she thinking of using my coupon??)... So, I went n claimed my prize, which was another coupon... WOW!! RM8 for one person... N I had three to give to my frens (which I can't see anymore)... Dat means I have RM69 worth coupon... hahahaha....

And I went to check on the kedai buku again... (btw, it is d place to redeem stuffs wif coupon..) I already promised to redeem some stuffs for my sis... OMG!! it was still closed... Dat means I can't use the coupons?? That means me coming to skool all alone n looking like an insane person
was all a waste?? OH dear.... Now I really wanna hit someone.. hard...
But I remembered the teacher telling me bout redeeming items at the koperasi... Well, I decided to try my luck... No harm done... And the boy tugas-ing said I COULD use my coupons there... WOOOO-HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I wanna hug some one!!! (I'm not a sane-mind-person)...

But, suddenly I thought of wat I could redeem...
The things I could redeem:
1) Soft drinks (cans)
2) More soft drinks (bottles)
3) snacks (gigabytes n some biscuits..)
4) Some more drinks (packets)
5) PJ shirt for my sis n fail peribadi n other stuffs she needs....
6) lencana...
7) Soft drinks (again..)

Wow... the whole place was bursting wif carbonated fluid... So the kind boy did recommended some things for me to redeem.. N I thank him for that.... Things I redeemed:
1) 2 cans, 7 bottles, 12 packets of drinks ( I could practically drown in them..)
2) 2 packets of gigabytes (chocolate n strawberry.. hehe...)
3) biscuits n snacks from munchy's...
4) 6 lencana
5) stuffs my sis need after her transfer to Air Putih...

And so, after hours of counting and adding and plussing and timing, we finally berjaya use up RM69... whew... The boy n his frens were more nervous then me.. haha... I saw his hand shaking.. N I don'y blame him... It was probably the biggest buisness he has ever done... haha...
So I went out the skool wif many plastic bags in my hand... N I looked like I jst came back from the biggest shopping spree in the country... Ppl were casting weird glances at me... haha... I dun care.. As long as there's food, there's me.... wahaha...

So, I went back and unpacked the stuffs I got... N I took a few pictures... N I was very proud n satisfied of my self, duno y... (my mind is still not very stable...) So check out the fotos!!! wahaha.. dun envy me... ^^


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Old School

Yee Peng, Siaw Wei, me n Shi Teng... YAY!!!
Stairs outside.... hoho.....^^
Candid shot... hehe... see d 2 person at d left...
Siaw Wei, Shi Teng, Yee Peng n Boon Kee...
Chat chat outside... waaa... I see a hp.... haha...
Papan notis outside.....
I miss dis place....
Boon BOon... jia jia de.... haha....
Shi Teng n Siaw Wei.... wif spooky background..hehe...
SpooKy!!! Taken at 5.30pm... wif cheap fone camera... haha...
Rack Book in pusat sumber.....
pusat sumber counter in SMKTP..... (wif Yee Peng)
ooo... blur... Boon Kee Siaw Wei n Boon Boon...
Yee Peng n me....
Yee Peng, Shi Teng n me...
Yay!! Frenz foreva!!! ^^
Siaw Wei... haha... syok sendiri
Boon Kee n Wei Xin
Yee Peng n Boon Boon

The day before yesterday, I decided to visit my previous school... It was a last minute idea N I didn have anything to wear... ( My black skool shoes were in Kuantan)... Anyway, my fren told me to wear PJ shirt n pants.... So I followed her idea...

The next morning, I followed my sister to skool, we took the skool bus... It's been quite a long time since I ride dat skool bus... N I still hated every moment of it... The driver doesn't bother about the comfort of his passengers... The bus which had a maximum capasity of 45 people had at least 60 or 70 people!!! N there was this unpleasent smell, perfume smell (which stank), bubblegum smell n sweat smell... Gross!!!

When we reached skool, I was quite nervous and did not had the slightest idea where to go.... Luckily I found some of my good frens nearby the entrance... They were Zhi Shien, Joanne, Yi Lian n See Xian (I have to list them all out to prove I still remember them)... The 1st person hu saw me was Yi Lian... She gasped and said "Jane Li!"... I was like "duh~ hu else?"... I didn think I had change so much.. had I?? They were saying that I was so thin now ( really??)... N we talked n laughed for a while... Then I asked them where were the others.. They led me to the hall in the new block... I almost fainted... It was full of form 3 students... And then I thought of Air Putih which had the opposite amount... Haha... I greeted some of them and luckily they still rememberd me... And Wai Nee was looking at me like she saw a ghost... (She was gaping at me with her mouth open!!).. Of cuz, I said hello to her n saw Jia Sin sitting all by herself... So I went to talk to her 4 a while... She seemed surprise to see me... But then hu would not?? They hadn't saw me for 10 months... And I missed them all... Every single one of them...

Next, I went to find my form 2 form teacher, Pn. Susi... And she said "Jane Li!!" (what else could they say??) "Kamu sudah tinggi lagi!" (Oh no...) haha... at least she still knew hu I was... Then I decided to go to the library... When I opened the library door... Everyone looked at me and shouted "Jane Li!!!" (again) hahaha.... I was sooo glad to see them... All of them was starting to ask questions at the same time... And I was soo blur.... All I got to do was to stand there and looked stupid... After dat, I offered to help them tugas in the library... But, there was nobody in the library except us... And we were like talking, laughing and shouting... Luckily the teacher didn came in or we would get into trouble... hehe... Then me amd my frens Siaw Wei, Shi Teng n Wee Nee decided to eat luch outside the skool... Wee Nee had some family problem n it was quite serious cuz she was crying while she told us... And she used up 10 helai tissue... I didn noe wat to do except comfort her n lend her some more tissue...(Poor thing...)

After we had our lunch, we went back to the library... N they were quite busy preparing 4 the malam PPS (which I canot go, unfortunately...) Well, they did ask me to go... haha... I can't...
So, what we did in the library the whole day included this:
taking photos: 40 minutes... (they are crazy...)
singing: duno... (I didn sing)
talking:98%... (haha... when there's Boon Kee, nothing is imposibble!!)
laughing: All the time....

And I got to tugas at the counter, which is my favourite place to tugas... I duno y I like the counter sooo much.. (haha...) And my frens were squatting behind the counter taking fotos and videos... It was crazy... And we were laughing sooo loud, the students in the library had asked us to keep quiet... HAHA... How ironic... Students asking the librarians to keep quiet in the library...
Everyting was so nice and fun... We were in the library until 5pm... half an hpur b4 we left, we took some more pictures (again)... N some of them were really really syok sendiri (especially Boon Kee..) We took picture behind the book racks, infront the book racks, even outside the library... haha... They really like taking photos...

And during my trip home, I sat with Siaw Wei in the bus, and being her ususl self (sampat..) She had many gossips for me... haha... So we talked n talked n talked in the bus... I didn realize how much I missed her... until now... She always had the ability to make me laugh no matter what... and I kinda miss someone who knows me for hu I am... Well, things had to move on.. At least I got a chance to meet up wif her...
So, I would like to make a list of frens whom i met yesterday... So that I will not 4get...
Yi Lain, Zhi Shien, Joanne, See Xian, Pei San, Shi Ling, Guat Sin, Michelle, Wen Dee, Sih Yoong, Jing Wen, Hui Ting, Wai Nee, Jia Sin, Shi Ling, Jia Teng, Boon Kee, Siaw Wei, Wei Xin, Yee Peng, Shi Teng, Edwin, Wee Nee, Pieng Seong, Su Yan, Pei Boon, Gracia n Chia Boon.
And to those hu I didn write down, I'm sorry, It's not I've 4got u all... It's juz of my stupid short term memory... I've been thinking very hard, and this is all I remember... Sorry...

I would like to thank ALL my frens for making my trip back so wonderful and unforgettable... N those hu still remembered me, thanks too.... Thank u guys sooo sooo much... I'll never ever 4get u guys!!! Cheers to ALL MY FRENS!!!!!!!! ^^


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