Wat happened... on test day...

My test was just over...
Thank God, seriously... I 4got how it was like to study 4 a test... I made my already big head bigger...
I duno which moron actually invented the whole "form 4 is honeymoon year" thing. I really want to kick that person's as*. Did that person really think form 4 can be close to anything called a honeymoon year?? Honeymoons are supposed to be romantic, relaxing, carefree....

Reality check.. He-looo??
In form 4, we have A LOT of additional subjects...
Most of the subjects we haven't seen or studied in our lives...
There's this sucker called ADD MATHS...
All the subjects definitely got harder...
I'm not complaining, but hu seriously thought that form 4 is honeymoon year must wake up immediately... It's more like labour year....

Anyhow, I didn study until the LAST second... So I canot cover everything... But luckily I can do most of the questions. Those questions which I can't, there's this thing called paying back... It works as simply as this: If a person asks me a question, then I provide an answer. When I asks, he must pay back... Jus as simple as that. But technically, he was kinda copying all of my answers. Fortunately of cuz not bulat-bulat... and unfortunately, I chose the wrong partner, he was emptier than me, he didn study n I can't even trust his answers... Ish~ So technically, I didn meniru ecxept in 1 subject... thanks to someone...

The 3 science papers were ok, except physics... I think teacher will vomit blood when he marks my paper... N there will be a streak of dried blood on my answer sheet... I seriously suck at calculations since last year... acceleration, displacement, velocity.... Yikes!!! I think when I was born, the doctor told my mum :" ma'am, ur daughter will suck at physics by the look on her face, pls try not to kill her when she does..."

Chem n bio I can cope with, it was kinda comforting 4 me to be in control of my papers instead they controlling me... But, I must not say too much until I see my marks... I think I will not score an A..

D maths family- modern maths n add maths...
Modern maths was quite easy, my teacher was smiling like the alice in the wonderland cat (wateva it's name was)... She said "good"... Well, I guess it's a good sign to other ppl, but I still need to worry in order to be safe... I hate feeling dissapointed...
Add maths on the other hand.... I dunid to think at all, bcuz I noe I WILL FAIL!!! The FAIL word is screaming loud n proud... I juz have to brace myself n how badly I failed....

Languages:
Well, it was definitely better than the rest, bcuz of the English paper... btw, I'm not taking chinese... WAHAHAHAHAHA.... It was a memorable experience watching ppl taking chinese while I sit back, relax n read my storybook... HAHA... It's soooo cool, I've been hoping 4 this day to come.... I think the doctor also told my mum:" And ma'am, ur daughter is sensitive to chinese words, she will get a migrane if she reads too much chinese, so I advice u to teach her english if u want a normal child..." Well, my mum n dad knew no chinese... So after going to standard 1, I had to painfully learn every word n teach them when I come home... The weird thing is, I speak chinese to my mum since standard 2, and she replies in english... Once u learn chinese, it just sticks to ur head, n u find it the easiest to communicate with other ppl... Although chinese rocks, but chinese words is a totally different matter... I can't cope with chinese...

Well, the subject I tiru-ed is: still a secret in case someone hu is not supposed to read this IS reading this... Ya'll understand rite?? hehe... Anyway, it was so easy to tiru when the singing teacher was the penjaga in our class... U could practically wave the answers in front of him n he will be too busy to notice... Wat an idiot... N he keeps on saying, "children, I can see wat u are doing, dun think I canot see, It's just a test, y stress urself? I u duno then leave it.." Is he thinking properly?? Ppl in the 1st class dun BLANK an answer unless they dun have anymore time... Jeez... The whole class despises him!!

Actually, the whole reason I study my bis head off is bcuz of my mum, she's expecting me to surprise her with a full row of A's... Hu am I kiddin, it's imposible!!! The night after the test, she called me n told me dat it's OK I do badly in my 1st test... I didn noe wat to think... Well, at least she won't dream of the unreachable A's anymore, but I duwan to suck too badly, cuz I duwan to see her dissapointed of me... again.... no stress....

All ends quite well, except 4 add maths (I HATE U ADD MATHS!!!) The result I MAY get is most probably:
bio, chem, moral, bm, sj: B
Add maths, physics: C
English, modern maths: A

Conclusion is, I will suck at this test.....









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Bola jaring

Da place

Atiqah n Fatin

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Camera shy (tipu punye la..)

Ahoy there, captain!!

Yee Wah, Yi Yin, Shun Gan

Hui Ching

Me n Pn. Ng..

Yikes.. nampak kaki ...

Pretty ladies minus me...

We rock....

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Tuesday
On Tuesday, I went 4 d bola jaring competition at someplace near panglima perang...

Haha... I was feeling excited n nauseated (as usual)... But I was pumped out n ready to go...

Our 1st match was against Sri Damai (I think)... Well, we were doing quite well... We won, I think it was 11-1... After dat match, we were sweating like mad... But unfortunately, we had to wait for another 1 n half hours b4 our 2nd match...

Fact no. 1: After sweating out, do NOT immediately rest and let ur sweat dry... Dat was our 1st mistake... After dat, we weren't in d mood to continue... Plus we were extremely tired...

Fact no. 2: Put SUNBLOCK!!! another stupid mistake I made... D sun was scorching us alive... I think if I stayed a little longer there, I can eat myself... D concequences of dis mistake is SUNBURN.. which will result to dark skin... Ishh.... Burned jelly.. YUCK~

Next match was against Seri Mahkota... They were better den d 1st 1... But fortunately we won... 7-4 I guess... By dat time we were completely worn out... All of us were tired and after having our lunch, we just hope we can slp.... Haha... Like pigs... Eat till full dy den wanna slp...

The 3rd match was 1 n half hours away... We entertained ourselves by listening to songs n slping on other ppl's bag... boring~ When it was time 4 our 3rd match, half of us were already in slumberland... I secretly hope dat we dun need to compete anymore... The adreline rush really can wipe u out.....

Under such exhausting circumstances it was not hard 4 us to lose... SPBSI beat us to 7-4 I think... damn... really frustrating... So we had to go on Wednesday 4 another match...

Wednesday

2day went for another match, teacher said if we lost dis match, we are disqualified... no pressure... So guess wat... We LOST!!! All thanks to d stupid referee hu only sees our team foul... We were like getiing fouls 4 times in a row... idot... Watever... we lost. I'll just have to deal with this fact and a few new bruises... All thx to dat GA...

Gud thing no.1: I get to skip skool....

Gud thing no. 2: I get to read Harry Potter n the deathly hallows....

Bad thing no.1: I canot catch up an my studies anymore...

Bad thing no. 2: I'm black n burned...

Bad Thing no. 3: My test is seriously near...

Conclusion: I'm screwed...................................................................................................................

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Skool skool skool....

Life is starting to get busier...


Teachers give tonnes of skool homework n I think they secretly hope 4 us to break under the pressure n die...


And of cuz... The killer subject... ADD MATHS!!! (thunder n lightning flashes at the background)


I duno hu created add maths... But I sure do noe hu hates him or her...

Wat is that person's problem???? Why make life so difficult and complicated wif add maths???

It's making my cute little innocent mind think like psycopath...

According to miss Phua, my add maths teacher,

Kebaikan-kebaikan belajar add maths:
1) Apparently, we can cross the road faster... Wat the heck??? I dun mind if I cross slower, all that matters is my safety!!!

2) It will help us to think faster.... Erm... okay....

3) Unfortunately, I can't think of a third......


Anyway, other subjects are still ok I guess... But the amount of homework is absolutely frightening... Some one should sue the teachers 4 giving us so much homework!! It's student abuse I tell u... Skool is not dat depressing anymore (for the moment)...

N the person sitting next to me is absolutely a joke cracker... I can laugh my as* off if Im not careful, I've seldom seen ppl hu can crack wise-as* jokes... Wahaha... Terrrrific!!!!

I also have many skool kokorikulum activities... Actually I enjoy doing them... Playing bola jaring makes me feel like a normal carefree human being... I seriously need to work out, I've grown fatter during the chinese new year... haha....

Everything is going back to normal... I think...

I'm starting to feel normal again.... Thank God...






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The Depths of Deppression

Today... Skool was depressing...
It started after recess...
Depression was slowly creeping me... The stress of the previous days finally caught up to me...
The pressure was almost unbearable...
I look around me... I can see many ppl so happy, my turmoil oblivious to everyone around me...
They laugh, they scream, they talk, they all seem unaffected by stress...
Or maybe they are just good at hiding it..
It seems like a very long time since I was bothered by stress... I coped very well last year considering leaving home n stuff...
But it caught up wif me... Now Im entangled by it's horrible pressure...
I can hardly breathe freely.... Im scared I'm gona crack under the pressure..
Nobody was there to save me from the bottomless pit of depression..
I remember once I told someone how....
I guess she 4got... Dat's the problem... Ppl tend to 4get... It creates many problem....
Den, I look at the person sitting next to me...
I think to myself....
Can she feel my depressing aura?? She keeps looking at me...
Wanting to srike up a conversation... Not noeing how....
Under normal circumstances, it won't be a problem 4 me to talk to anyone...
But not 2day.... Today I'm juz too tired... I can hardly breathe properly...
I feel a bit guilty...

This world is not cruel and hard.....
It's juz not as beautiful as we want it to be....

Sometimes.... We need to cry once in a while...
Emotion is something we canot avoid...
Even if we do overcome it...
It will catch up with us someday...
N tear us apart slowly....

We cannot blame ppl 4 not understanding us...
Maybe we dun wan them too...
Maybe we jus weren't clear enuf...

Things happen 4 a reason...
We juz need to accept it...

If we can't change things to make it wat we want...
we jus need to let it go...




I look at my watch...
It stopped at 11.05... The bell rings 4 the last time for the day... I pack my stuffs n leave....




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The 1st week of skool

The first week of skool was not utterly horrible.. (Thank God)
It's been a kinda busy week... Actually it's not, I juz 4got dat skl life is this hectic...
Anyway, as we all noe, during our form 4, there are some new subjects:
1) chemistry:
The teacher teaching us have absoutely no clue of wat chemistry is.... Suring class, sh juz talks to herself and asks us to copy notes... N the chemistry lab is soooo smelly, it smells of paint and poo...Yuck!! I hope we dun die of lung cancer...
Chem teacher: *N* itu apa?? Saya tak tau... (Wat the heck????)

2) bio:
The teacher teaching us bio is our form teacher... She is quite young n kinda destroyed our confidence the 1st time she stepped into ur class... Cuz she wouldn't speak eng.. N as all of us noe, our bio syllabus IS in eng... anyway, she didn turned out to be sooooo bad. We were kinda expecting something which is not english coming out from her mouth... Well, it's not too bad...

3) add maths:
The teacher really reaaally loves to talk man. Oh my Gosh.... She can say about anything under the sun.. Well, on the bright side, wat she says is quite interesting.... N no one died of boredom.. So I guess it OK... Let's jus hope she says wat she's supposed to say during the lessons...

4) fiziks:
The teacher belum masuk class yet. So I guess i can't say anything bout him... But I heard he's quite good.....

Well, the 1st few days were quite hectic, many ppl wanted to change classes... One of them was so desperate she even cried. Anyway, it's the second week... N I blive that everything will go back to normal soon.... I hope..




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I'm BACK!!!

Hey everyone...
I'm back!!! Actually, I've been back 4 a seriously long time... But I didn have the tiniest chance to on9 due to some complications... So now oni jadi update my blog...
Anyway... I dun really have chance to write much now... So I'll juz write briefly...
The conclusion is:
The training was absolutely definitely fantastic.... N I met many ppl n we had crazy fun 2gether..
List of things I miss:
1) Celine!!
2) Rachelangelo!! (haha)
3) My roommates
4) The serving one's (except 1, u noe hu)
5) The nites
6) The everyday suasana (eventhough a bit boring but I like it)
5) The food (especially barley and soya)
6) N of cuz all the 14-16 years old sisters!!! (I LUV YOU GUYS!!!)

All the fotos are in my friendster profile.. Go check it out...

Gotta go... gonna write more next time... I guess I'll juz promise it to myself... hehe...

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1 month... Feel nothing, miss nothing...

Everybody was asking me The ULTIMATE question:
''What r ur plans during holidays?''

Ppl hu did asked me: Pn. Chiam, Edwin, n loads of ppl I 4got...
And I didn give a very clear answer... So now I'm gonna tell u ''Guys, I'm going away for 1 month for a training..'' Satisfied?? No?? Not my problem I guess... And by the way dun miss call or sms me during this period... I'm not allowed to use my fone... Haha.. So if u wanna ask something, wait until 15 dec 2008... I will be back (unless my plane crashes and I burn to death or drown in the south china sea...)...

So, I guess I should be missing my frens and stuffs... But,,,,, I guess it's just not worth it... I'm such a nobody dat if I pindah, they won't even notice I'm gone.... Well, maybe not so serious... But I guess NOONE is gonna miss me this month, maybe except my shoes... N my parents...

Soo, even if u do miss me (due to too much medication..).. U could let me noe, maybe I will consider the whole I-won't-miss-anything-or-anyone thing... But I definately will miss my family.... N junkfood.... N carbonated drinks... As u can clearly see, I'm missing non-living things (except my family)...

Sooo, wat I'm trying to say is.... I Will miss my frens.... HAHA... It's soo confusing that I myself is confused... LOL... Well, if I miss everybody sooo badly, it will only ruin everything, don't u think so?? So, the last conclusion is... I'm TRYING very hard not to miss everthing... Get it?? Sorry to confused the readers... haha... But I will oso miss my blog... I consider it a part of my daily routine now... So... BYE (for 1 month oni, no need get so emotional jane)...

And btw, I won't be updating my blog for 1 month... And when I do, it will be full of cobwebs n stink... Hehe... so once again, Bye!!!




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