Today... Skool was depressing...
It started after recess...
Depression was slowly creeping me... The stress of the previous days finally caught up to me...
The pressure was almost unbearable...
I look around me... I can see many ppl so happy, my turmoil oblivious to everyone around me...
They laugh, they scream, they talk, they all seem unaffected by stress...
Or maybe they are just good at hiding it..
It seems like a very long time since I was bothered by stress... I coped very well last year considering leaving home n stuff...
But it caught up wif me... Now Im entangled by it's horrible pressure...
I can hardly breathe freely.... Im scared I'm gona crack under the pressure..
Nobody was there to save me from the bottomless pit of depression..
I remember once I told someone how....
I guess she 4got... Dat's the problem... Ppl tend to 4get... It creates many problem....
Den, I look at the person sitting next to me...
I think to myself....
Can she feel my depressing aura?? She keeps looking at me...
Wanting to srike up a conversation... Not noeing how....
Under normal circumstances, it won't be a problem 4 me to talk to anyone...
But not 2day.... Today I'm juz too tired... I can hardly breathe properly...
I feel a bit guilty...
This world is not cruel and hard.....
It's juz not as beautiful as we want it to be....
Sometimes.... We need to cry once in a while...
Emotion is something we canot avoid...
Even if we do overcome it...
It will catch up with us someday...
N tear us apart slowly....
We cannot blame ppl 4 not understanding us...
Maybe we dun wan them too...
Maybe we jus weren't clear enuf...
Things happen 4 a reason...
We juz need to accept it...
If we can't change things to make it wat we want...
we jus need to let it go...
I look at my watch...
It stopped at 11.05... The bell rings 4 the last time for the day... I pack my stuffs n leave....
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