Ressurected

This blog is officially ressurected by me..
Didn have to time to write in it...
Hmm~ let's see.. wat's new??
Well, I came back from the training...
And Im proud to say that I really kept enjoying the Lord after coming back.. Even until 2day... I can't say that I've abided in the Lord for 24 hours the whole day, but I did have some improvement... =D Praise the Lord..



Oh~ and my little dark secret is out... Or should I say my big black horrible secret which has been hidden for ages and no one ecxept God knew...
Now, it has been made known to a few ppl...
But unfortunately, I dun feel the relief I was hoping to feel after the secret is out...
The main problem is because this BIG PROBLEM is still bothering me.
And I have simply no idea hoe to overcome it...
But I will try... My very best...

Oh~ And I have to preach the gospel during skool reopens..
I always promise myself that I will. But I failed miserably..
So, this time, I will pray to the Lord, and ask for strength for me to have the burden...
I really dun wan my frens to point at me on judgement day and say:
"You!! You didn preached the gospel to us, now we have to suffer bcuz of YOU... " (aiks..)

And Rachel is coming this Saturday... Hurray!!!
I dun think I can take it anymore... It's sooo boring, cus my sis left for one month...
And Im all alooone (wif my parents)... With no one to laugh with... =(
So, thank God for Rachel!! =)

p/s: I miss my lil' sis... =(




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Dreadful results

I was kinda anticipating my results...
Wandering how horrible it was...
So, the last few days, teachers have been marking like half-crazes marking machines...
Well, we can say dat they were marking at the speed of light bcuz they had a deadline...
Hahaha... But dat may be bad news for us students...
Fast crazy marking teachers may not mark properly or even go through wat students have been writing for 2 hours and all their heart or blood that was shed while answering...

Maybe it's too dramatic...
Anyway, when I got my results back, sadly, I didn leap up into the air or shout happily...
The best I could afford was a frown and say : Maybe d next one will be better...
But, unfortunately, the next one was NOT BETTER...
In fact, it was almost the same...

This is wat I got after years of blood and hard toil:

Sejarah: 78
Fiziks: 71
Add maths: 74
Maths: 71

But, there was one absolutely hilarious result I got for a subject, english...
Guess wat I got......................................................................................................guess guess..........................................................................................................................................................99%
Can u imagine that?????????
Im NOT HAPPY OR PROUD!!!
Just find it devastatingly FUNNY....
Hu gets 99 for english??? It makes no sense to me...
There were 2 essays and that makes it more illogical how I could get 99....
In fact, I find it stupid and insulting...
Dis just means the teacher didn really look through wat I spent 2 hours writing...
It's just STUPID!!!
Wat kind of teacher gives students 99 for ENGLISH wif 2 ESSAYS???????

4give my outburst, I just wanted my feelings to be made known that Im not satisfied with my grades... I rather get low marks than get a super-duper irrational 99%...

Anyway, I not satisfied with my other subjects either...
My mum is not ganna feel happy and jump for joy with me...
In fact, she's assuming that I would study the WHOLE school holidays and 'catch up'...
I wanna faint..................................

Well, that's my results, the rest still remains a mystery... (Im grateful)
Luckily, my heart didn went into cardiac arrest when I got bac my results... Thanks for beating bravely my dear 16 year old heart...

I guess I'd make my resolution now:
1. I will spend my long holidays staring at the book until finally something makes sense.
2. i will not be angry or lose my temper no matter how much my mum nags at me to study.
3. I WILL try to be grateful when my mum is tutoring me.
4. I will try not to think of wat I could have done instead of staring at my bio book for 10 hours.
5. My eyeballs will stay in their sockets while I try to squeeze some information into my useless brain.
6. I will remember wat I read until my SPM.

As we can see, all of them is quite impossible to keep... Or, I will die trying....






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I did it!!

HOOOOORAAAAAAY!!!!
I did it!!! I finished the inhuman torure of the dreadful final exams!!!
Oh my!!!
After the last paper, I would like to say dat I stripped down to my underwear and somersault around the classroom...
But sadly, that didn happen, no.1, I can't somersault even if my life depends on it (I'd probably break my fat neck) no.2: I dun tink my frens will still be alive if they saw me only in my undies...
I can't say it's a good sight, they might end up throwing up or in the ICU...

Anyway, wat I did right after the exam was...................................................... I felt happy.....
Yup, lame I noe... Wat did I expect myself to feel??
Well, so my exam days are just over like that... (wat was I expecting? Fireworks and lightning?)
And I have no idea how to celebrate...
My frens say they will celebrate with a GOOOOOD LOOOONG nap...
AHaha... I wish I was that lucky, I can't slp... So that's y I'm typing this....

So... I dunno wat my plans are... Mayb I'll go back to Gambang later... I'll be goin to Klang tmrw..
Well, I dunno... I just feel..... weird n empty... Now exams are over, I duno wat to do.. (Is dat even normal??)

Well, I'll not be going to skool nxt few days... Those hu haven't had chineses paper yet, GOOD LUCK!! You will need it... Bcuz I DON'T!!! (ahaha... 4gif me, I still haven't got over the I-dun-need-to-take-chinese-anymore-forever feeling... Maybe it will go away in.... 5 years!!! =p)

Actually, I might need my luck, I still haven't gotten back my results... Maybe it will cause me a heart attack and I will die a painful and horrible death...
Or maybe, it will be sooooo good, I myself will not belive it, and teachers will parise me for my hard work...... (Nah, nvr going to happen in a thousand years,,,)
Well, forget the results, I'll just enjoy my happiness while I still have it... =D

Hmmm... Going to ride bike later maybe...

People in the world!!! Im so happy!!


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Last Lap!!

This is it!!
It's d last day of d dreadful exam... TOMORROW...
Tomorrow..... Faster.......... Tomorrow!!!
After d last paper, I will scream and shout, and take of my pants and run round the classroom...
Well, mayb Im not stripping...
But, I will be happy definitely!! =p

Im WAITING....
Impatiently.... =p



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Almost!!

Yay people!!!
The exams are ALMOST over!! (notice I say ALMOST...)
Well, it isn't over yet,
But I have no idea why I feel like it's over...
Anyway, I really donno how I did this time...
Seriously, everytime I think I did quite well, the results makes me get a heart attack when it came out..
Everytine I tot I did quite terrible, the result is much better than I expected...
So Im not thinking or hoping on ANYTHING...
I jus hope my heart won't fail when I get back my results...

Wat am I talking about???!!! Exams aren't even FINISH...
And here I am, blabbing bout my unknown results...
=.=''... I need a break....

My Poem

Tresspass not that section,
or you will regret what will happen.
In a split second,
my heart will have a dent.
Don't you know that it's wrong,
to sing other people's song, and tell them it's another.
But it isn't, so don't bother.
There will no chance to be sober,
because it is all over.

All things happen for a reason,
but this is called treason.
Don't you know between good and bad?
Or you just want to make me mad.
The thin line that was there,
is causing such a nightmare.
Because it is not what you think it is.
there is no more love and bliss.

But forget what I say,
You never did care anyway.
After all this time,
I was never fine.
But now it is all gone,
so don't bother to sing along.

I wrote this during my eng paper... Was too bored... =p
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Gah~

Again...

Teacher said: jane, u must practice... Plz practice... practice practice.....
I did. Seriously, I just get nervous when Im playing the piano in front of her...
So I sucked... Very seriously sucked.....



Haiz~ I WILL PRACTICE MORE!!!
But exams are here... That's my BIG problem...
Im not very gud at time management....
So, I guess I'll just make a list of things to do and not to do...



Things to do:
=Practice piano
=Study
=Memorise
=Understand wat Im actually reading
=Think of happy thoughts after exam
=Breathe in front of the test paper

Things NOT to do:
-Freak out when thinking of wat I still havn't study
-Listen to music when studying
-Hate myself 4 forgetting wat I just studied a minute ago
-Hit my head and torture myself if I cannot remember
-Get head and brain damage while studying
-Eat to distress
-Forget to practice piano for d millionth
-Think of the LONG stretch of exam days
-Writing my will in case I die in my classroom

Thing I think I can acheive:
+Freak out
+Going blank in front of the examination paper
+Freak out sumore
+Absolutely despise myself for having such a LOUSY memory
+Binge while studying
+Do VERY BADLY in exam

As we ALL can see, my list of things NOT to do is absolutely longer than my things to do... So that means I have many things NOT to do instead of doing things. And things I can acheive is my list of things NOT to do...

So that's about it... I think Im a lousy person.... =(

So: Gah~

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Lost

Yesterday was our drama comp...
All of us were pump and ready to go...
We were nervous of cuz..
But as ready as ever.
We were the 3rd team to perform. Boy, we really were nervous..
haha...
When our turn came, we did our best. I feel that it was the best in our drama history..
After the performance, we were happy...
Who will not be after so much hard work???
well, so we waited for our results...
We waited, and waited, and waited, and waited.............
Finally th judges announced the results.
Consolation prize : Tanah Putih, Air Putih.............. =.= we were all like : aiyo.............=(


Haiz.... We really thought we could have won...
At least during our drama we got positive feedbacks from the audience. They were laughing.
I took that as a good sign...

Well, the 1st place is St. Thomas...
2nd is SABS
3rd is .... I 4got...

well, I n Anil were sour grape-ing...
I noe... sore losers... So wat? U wouldn't expect us to cheers and shout happily?
Anyway, we did our best. Now I jus hope that consolation prizes were announced randomly, oe we got VERY behind.... =(

We broke the SMKAP-always-top 3-since-2005 record.
Yikes... Im sorry teacher...
Y not we blame it on the judges?? =p

fotos on facebook!! =D



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Finally!!

Yes, people!!
Finally!!! I have a......... FACEBOOK ACCOUNT!!!!
After years of persuasion and a lot of requests, I finally have a acc...
Muahaha...

So, dun ask me : Eei, U got facebook???

Not anymore do I have to say : No... It's lame....

Although I still it is still quite lame...
well, lame is in season it seems....

Actually, I wanted an account bcus I love the 'Guess the sketch challenge'...
haha...
Anyway, the harm is done,
I hope the choice will be fun.




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Moon Cake Fest!!

Wish all of you guys Happy mooncake festival!!!
Dun burn urself while playing candles!! ^^

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Special request

This is specially requested by my dear fren Liew Chien...
She wans me to write in my blog:
She wans to marry.... (=.=)

Ya, weird, I noe. But wat can I do? I promised. Hehe...
So here goes:

GO LIEW CHEIN WANTS TO MARRY!!!


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Warning

Be careful,
some things can be found again,
but some just melt in the rain,
causing so much trouble and pain,
the things in your life that's main,
losing it, life will never be the same.

Remember,
things you hear and things you see,
are never meant to be free,
there is always a fee.

Beware,
of people's words,
sweet things they say to lure,
until you are not sure,
then your failure and fall is near.

Watch out,
to those who think they know much,
many things and knowledge they touched,
otherr people they like to judge.
But one day, they will witness and watch,
their own mistakes and pride their life will cost.

H.o.l.i.d.a.y.s

YaY!!!
The holidays are here!! (duh~obviously...)
Well, not going anywhere special eventhough my parents have the same holidays wif us..
So, we just went back to Temerloh...
And so, here I am, updating my blog in Temerloh...
Well, I dun really mind not going anywhere, as long as Im with my family...
The days without them really is.... I dunno how to put it...
Being away from home for soooooooo long really can make a person feel....... umm.. Unloved??
I dunno, u have to experience it to describe that frustrating feeling...
So, those who are sick of staying wif ur parents, go stay out for one month, and u will run back home crying... Seriously....

Well, my mum and dad missed us too... Haha... They keep buying A LOT of food for us. Like we were starved in Kuantan. Guess they were trying to make up for the time we lost.
Well, I really dun blame them... I guess, I just miss them too much...
Even after Im home wif them, I still miss them.. (Yea, stupid, I noe)
So please appreciate ur parents... Seriously....

To those who are having a GOOD time, dun forget to studeeeeee!!!! haha...
I noe, but exams are almost here...
Think of the consequences if u dun...
Anyway, time management is important (I suck at it) during this times...

Have a wonderful holiday amigos!!






p/s: I feel fat... (!.!)

The opp of LOVE..

I seriously dunno wat is wrong with her....
WAT IS HER FREAKING PROBLEM??!!!
1st of all, it's MY script,
2nd of all, I've got ALL the actions figured out, so she doesn't have to waste her brain cells.
Then WHY is she acting sooo kesian? Like she's doing all the work??
IT"S MY SCRIPT!!!
Oh my goodness...
She's gonna make me blow my own head out!!!
And she got all the actions wrong. The voice wrong. It's just NOT what I wanted...
And I tried ti change it to the way it was supposed to be.. And she scolded me...
(T.T)
But this all I can take. Wat I can't take was, she scolded me for her stupid mistake.
In the script she modified, Aimi was supposed to walk out with a big tummy!! I mean, WTH?? She's only 16 moron!!! And u are a teacher wif brains!! Think!!!
And then I told her, I made some changes to ur modifications, bcuz 16 year old Aimi jus CANOT have a big tummy!!

And that's when she did the most unpredictable thing, she shouted at me.
Miss Phua: OF CUZ SHE CANOT HAVE A BIG TUMMY! WHO ASK U TO PUT BIG TUMMY?!
Me: I did not put big tummy!! U were the one who wrote it!!
Miss Phua: NO!! NO I DID NOT!! JUST FOLLOW THE SCRIPT LAH!!!
Me: This script is after I've modified her BIG TUMMY!!! You WROTE IT URSELF!!!!
Miss Phua: Oh!! That one, I was just joking around wif the teachers, we follow the script.

Oh. My. Goodness.
I would have quit right then if it wasn't MY script she was holding.
I mean, this is too much. I have my pride you noe? My way of thinking...
Ish~
I have nothing else to complain. I can't.... I just dun have the energy.

To Miss Phua: U may have won this round, but I won't let u make the fool out of me and my script. Get ready for round 2....



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RTM Auditorium

Today went to the RTM auditorium at Tanah Putih there...
Miss Phua fetched me and Kar King.
Oh MY!! Wasn't she noisy...
Seriously, she was bla-bla-blaing with a high pitch voice: ....so u all have to think, and themusic, I thinkk it is best..... bla bla bla....
I think my ears bled inthe car... Seriously annoying...
Then we reached the stadium. One word. WOW..
It was HUGE and nice...
But we got a nice shock when we saw the stage. It was full of lights.
Lights which we had to control during the drama...
There were like hundreds of them...
WOW..... and it has a backstage room which people can make-up and stuff. Cool...
So we checked the place out and took many fotos... It was rather a complicated looking place at the backstage...
After that we just sat around, due to Kar King MEGA-EMOING, we didn't talk much.
I wonder wat happened to him... He looks VERY down and deppresed these days... I haven't seen him like that... And he kept on checking his hp. Mayb waiting for *someone's* message.
Looked like he was crying... My goodness... Drained all my high spirits and left me feeling only annoyed at the super high-pitched teacher...
All the other skools teacher were discussing about the lighting and all I could hear was her voice...
She kept on talking n talking ntalking n talking........
So here I am now at home, tired and have an ear-ache...



P/s: It's just a cruel joke.... =(

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Tagged

A - AVAILABLE : Yes
B - BIRTHDAY: 27 March
C - CRUSHING ON : *zipp*
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Kekwa
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : My sista
F - FAVORITE SONG : hymns
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : worms =)
H - HOMECOUNTRY : Malaysia
I - IN LOVE WITH : *zipp*
J - JUGGLE :Can't... Tried and failed...
K - KILLED SOMEONE : I think no...
L- LONGEST CAR RIDE : 4got... I was sleeping...
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Definitely mint....
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1
O - ONE WISH : Happiness
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My mum
R - REASON TO SMILE : My frens
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Dont know
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 6.09 am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN : erm... haha...
V - VEGETABLE(S) : Kangkung
W- WORST: Being misunderstood..
X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : once..
Y – YOYOS ARE : nice to play..^^
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Aries


Random Questions.
About You: Words would seem to simple
Spell your name without vowels : Chw Jn L
What color do you wear most? : Green gua...
Least favorite color? : yellow
What are you listening to? : Nothing
Are you happy with your life right now? : Yup =)
What is your favorite class in school? : My class... I love them all...
When do you start back at school/college? : err....
Are you outgoing? : To some people I am...
Favorite pair of shoes? : My slippers
Where do you wish you were right now? : My bed

THE CANS:
Can you dance? : Haha... You wanna see??
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : Nope..
Can you whistle? : Yup
Write with both hands? : Practicing with the left..
Walk with your toes curled? : Pain but yes...

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? : nope
Do you believe in miracles? : Yes.
Do you believe in magic? : Maybe
Love at first sight? : Yes.
Do you believe in Santa? : How old d'you think I am??
Do you know how to swim? : A bit. I won't drown..
Do you like roller coasters? : Yup!!
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : Some maybe...

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane? : Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out? : I don't recall..
Have you ever been to the ocean? : Yup
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yes

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? : 29?
What radio station do you listen to? : Nope
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : McDonalds
What was the last thing you bought? : Food
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : The Spiderwick Chronicles

THE WHOS:
Who Sent these questions to you?: Someone did..
Who was the last person you text? : Err... My sis?
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : Zoey!!
Who was the last person you said I love you to? : I don't remember...

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? : Of Course..
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yup..
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : err... no.. But ppl cried on mine..
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : Never!!
Do you cry when you get an injury? : Last time yes... Now, not so..
Do certain songs make you cry? : Yes.. ^^

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? : Trying hard to be..
What can make you happy? : My family and frens
Do you wish you were happier? : Maybe
Can music make you happy? : Depends

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heartbroken: *zip*
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : *zip*
What is your current hair color? : Black.
Current piercings? : Nope
Have any tattoos? : Wish I had one!!!
Eye color? : Black

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color : Green
Get a haircut, Short or long hair : Short?
Height : More than 173cm
Best clothing : Nothing... =) (joking)

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail : Unfortunately, no..
Mooned someone : Wat does mooned mean?
Laughed so hard you cried : Many times!
Cried in school : Yes.
Thrown up in a store : Nope
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Many.. ^^
Gone skinny dipping : Definately NO!!

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King : Mcdonalds.
Single or Group Dates : Single
Chocolate or Vanilla : Campur
Strawberries or Blueberries : Strawberries
Meat or Veggies : Both.
TV or Movie : Movie.
Guitar or Drums? : Guitar
Adidas or Nike : Nike
Chinese or Mexican : Chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Cheerios.
Cake or Pie : Pie
MTV or VH1 : MTV.

Lalala...

Im happy!!! ^^
I actually feel much happier now...
Cuz??
Ahaha... Wiston (Eng Teacher) going to let us watch a movie tmrw!!
weeee.......
Umm... It's called Apocalypto (Or something that sounds similar, I seriously dunno)
well, It's hard to imagine that our goody-goody teacher would let us watch such a gross movie (as they say, it is filled with gory details)..
well, pigs can fly can't they?
They just need to loss some weight and grow a pair of wings. How hard can that be? =)

Had been working on the drama script for 2 days..
My brain seriously has no more brain juice. I squezzed the last drop..
What did I get in return?
'' Jane, you have to gimme the hardcopy. I canot view it in the pendrive!" Well, so much for Thanks a million, your sacrifices will be remembered!!
Anyway, I think it's quite good... Ahem, Since that noone is gonna compliment me, I'll do it myself!!
So.......... dat's why I'm happy... Can't understand? Well, that weird old me...

Then came the spider

I confess, I have made many mistakes in my life...
I have tried to put it all behind me. Made it my PAST..
But sometimes, many things can resurface after a long period of time.
I have no intention of bringing it all back..
My stupid selfish ignorant mistakes...
Has haunted me for very long.
I hope I can 4get..
But time doesn't help much...
I feel sorta dizzy and dazed..
Missing.. Miss... Missed... gone....
I thought it was okay...
Turned out I was wrong...
But I will be strong.
Bcuz I will not let ya'll see the weakness in my eyes...

Now it's time to get rid of it once and for all...

p/s: Iloveyounot...



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My little dictionary

light: A source you use in the middle of the night so that you will not kill urself walking from one end of the room to the other

hand phone: A device 89% of the young ppl can't survive without 2day. It males them distracted and not study. It may oso irritate parents when children use this device during eating.

Clothes: Something we wear in order not to frighten others with wat lies in layers on our tummy.

Mother: The closest person you have and cooks and clean. Have a high tendecy to scold you with no reason. But you love her very much anyway.

specs: A brilliant invention by (dunno hu). It is worn on the eyes. It keeps ppl safe by not walking into walls or even poles which are usually a blur when you are short-sighted.

Connie: A head-strong person hu can get very angry when small stuffs happen. ex: her ruler, pen is missing. May kill ppl somebody someday.. ( ahaha joking, dun kill me...)

violin: A beautiful musical instrument only when played by real violinist.. It may sound like a half-dead chicken and tends to cause earaches and headaches when played by a begginer.

Friends for sale (facebook): A place where you can buy ur friends or even loved ones and go bankrupt keeping them. It is also used to buy enimies and the poor person is ordered to pick up poop for the sake of the buyers entertainment.

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Don't even think about it

Hey you..
(not the person reading this..)
Don't think u understand me soo well...
Dun think dat wat u say bout me is correct..
I absolutely HATE it when ppl misunderstand me...
Maybe if u look deeper, listen more instead of thinking rubbish, u might actually see the real me..
So stop guessing and start asking..
Stupid ppl jus think they are rite and blabber (is dis even a word??) wat they think..
I noe or maybe ju7st hope that u r not stupid..
I really treasure you but this has gotta stop..
My emotions are wrenched out everytime and my gut feels like someone stepped on it..
So can u PLEASE <<>>> to understand??
Or just shut up.. Thank you..

The above is for someone you all would never noe, even the person doen't noe.. So just ignore it!

p/ps: U noe how much I HATE misunderstandings.. It is something that KILLS MY FRIENDSHIP with other ppl.. plz, do not misunderstand me.. thank you very much..

No TIme

My gosh!!! It's been centuries since I updated my blog...
Yikes...
I just dun have the time..
Even if I do, I dun have the line.. ( cool, it rhymes)
I've been crazy downloading mobile games..
Hehe... Bored to tears at home.. Well, It's better than in Kuantan..
Recently, things have not been too good wif the tenants and the owner..
Can't help it.. It's her house..
I just wish things doesn't have to be this way..
anyway, the new meeting hall is finished!! YaY!!!
It has a nice smell ( I like the smell of new buildings..)
And I can't wait to invite my friends over..

And I miss the trainings.. Wonder y there is no outing this time.. =.=
I wanna see my friends!!! AAArgh!!!

Well, Im typing quite randomly.. Anything that pops into my head now...
The 1st is add maths!!!
Hmm... I wonder y...
OO, for ur information, I dun hate add maths anymore.. Add maths hate me...
I got 40 something for last monthly test!!
How can it be??!!!
Cause Im still terrible at add maths..
It's not that hard actually.. Just takes plenty (I mean PLENTY) of hard work...
So, maybe that's why I got so low marks.. HAHA.. =.=

It's raining heavily in Gambang.. There is thunder and lighting (Can't go out, hanvn'tbeen a good girl recently.. nanti dipetir kilat) ..
Gosh..


Wat Im about to write next is strictly for my beloved blog: Dear blog, Im sorry u've been so lonely.. I just dun have a chance to update u.. Im soooooo sorry.. I will make it up to u..



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Durian Season

Da durian season is HERE!!!
Actually it has been here for quite a long time...
Haha....
I ate a lot of durian this time..
Personally, I dun really like durian.
I neither hate nor like them.. Actually I dun like durian, no offense to durian lovers out there...
Usually during this seasin, I will stand a side while my dad mercilessly disect the durian and watch my mum and sister smile with glee looking at the yellow awful smelling goo within...
While they munch away happily, sucking the seed, I will always watch and put on my best digusted look when they offer me a durian... I kinda perfected that sour-looking expression over these long anti-durian years....

But this time, it is totally different. I'm not staying at home now, and when durian season came, I was actually looking forward to eating that awful-smelling-yucky-looking fruit...
I must use the word CRAVING to eat durians.... This is definitely rare....
And I ate a lot for my anti-durian standard.. Maybe it seemed like a poor-tiny-weeny looking portion to all durian lovers... Anyway, I feel in love with DURIAN!!!
Add me in the smelly durian history people!!!

But I can't eat too much, it's soo heaty, and b4 I noe it.. TAA-DAA!!! A newborn ulcer on my fat lips... =.="
Futhermore too much durian eating can just lead too other 'diseases' such as:
obese, overweight, fat = me
more spare tires to cum = on my car body
more new ulcers = on my lips
sister in coma = smelly fart
frens in coma = bad breath
Ppl chasing me with pitchforks = Many ppl in coma

So, as u can see, the odds are not good if Jane eats too much durian... She may unknowingly kill people as she happily sucks on a durian seed... So people, please say no to Jane & Durian!!!

Seriously, I need to control myself!!!
Well, if I dun have durian, I still got rambutans~
But now I prefer durians!!!
So, buy insurance people!!
I will not hold responsibility to anything that is going to happen!! ^^

Say what you need to say~ ^^

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Piano Exam

Just now 10.05 am just had my piano exam.
Oh Lord, I was soooo scared!!! My hands kept shaking...
Well, it was better than last year. Last year I scared until my hand frozen and I seriously canot feel the piano... Well, at least this year my touch receptors didn abandon me.....

It all started well at 1st.. The 1st few scales were quite easy...
The problem started at F# melodic minor OMGosh~~~ I think I salah until very serius ar!!!!!
Aiyo, dun care la... Den my 1st exam piece sucked more than it should have. At least my 2nd and 3rd piece were ok... Haizzzz...... And sumore the aural... Walao~ die~

Anyway, my teacher said I will not fail. So I dun care anymore...

Well, there is something I would like you guys to appreciate, that is.......
My sister actually gave the examiner the booklet "The Mystery Of Human Life"!!! (applause ppl!!!)
She did something I wouldn't dare to do in my whole miserable life. And I think she deserves some acknowledgement from all of us...

So, everything ended quite well and I went back to skool...
They kip asking y I didn ponteng (a.k.a U r so stupid)... haha... Im a GOOD student... I won't simply ponteng de... (Plz hold ur vomit in ppl.. =.=)

Thank You Lord for guiding me through this day.
Lord I Love You....

EMAS Festival!!

The army of 4...

crowded..
Our booth
The 'goyang kaki' teachers..
My team mates...


Went for this Maths and Science Fest (EMAS)...
It was really fun and cool...
It was held at Taman Pertanian and bout 50 skools sent out representatives as well...
We (Elaine, Li Yang, Kar Junn) opened a booth at the last booth (no.40)...
We prepared a few questions for the people hu visited our booth... Most of them were IQ questions which I absolutely believe I canot solve with my IQ-less brain...
There was this question which needed match sticks... And we didn have any, so we had to pick small sticks from the ground which was wet and yucky... (ewww...)

Things started getting hectic when ppl started pouring into our booth...
Well, our main job was to explain the questions to them (if they dun understand) and then give them a pen and a paper and let a miracle happen....

Most of them solve the easy 1 ( thx to the uncountable tips we gave them..)
Quite few of them managed to solve all... Actually it was only 1 person. And he got many presents from us... haha... congrats....

I was so tired explaining all the same things a zillion times...
Me:" Sini ada 7 bulat kan? Kamu isi bulat-bulat ini dengan nombor 1 hingga tujuh supaya bla bla...

Sien dao~~~~~~~~ And I was standing the whole time..... T.T
Plus, I didn get to visit the other booths which definitely had more interesting things going on...
I will participate next year... Not opening a booth, but going to every station!!!!
And the teacher was having sooo much fun sitting and eating and playing....
I only went out for a toilet break the whole time.....

Well, it was quite a good experience for me.. My BM improve loads due to the unstoppable flow of Malays at my booth. I can speak like a Malay!! Wahaha.... Joking, I lost the ability half an hour after the festival........

I would like to thank my friends who were as dilligent as me speaking weird Malay to all the ppl...
1. Mou Kar Junn
2. Poon Li Yang
3. Elaine Tan
4. ME!!!!

Thank u guys soo much!!!!

Something Special

Hey people, looooong time no update. And Im not sorry!!
I dun have the time!!! Aaaa...... anyway, something to share wif u ppl..
I found my name in the PAPERS!!!
Yes ppl, I'm on the newspaper, on the sport section. This is no mirage, not an illusion...
And I certainly didn edited it in Photoshop....
Muahaha.... Face it, Im famous.... And Im a lawn bowler...








p/s: All the following above is fake... It's just someone hu share my terbalik name... Lucky person... But I did gotcha for a minute didn I.. haha..
btw, wat is lawn bowling??

Consecration

During the training, I really enjoyed the whole training.
I feel more burdened to preach the gospel.
The brother really stressed on the point of the Gospel. A thing also really touched me.
That I should not boast or exalt myself an longer. Who I am to boast myself?? For there is this Greater, more Powerful person. The Creator of all things. He is the alpha, the Omega. He is the beginning, He is also the Ending. He is God.

Although many of us have no interest on this matter, but God is real and living. No one can deny this fact.

Throughout history some people have at times opposed the idea of God. The very fact that some rebellious sons disown their fathers means that they do have a father. The fact that some people tried to tear down the family means that the family is a reality. It has been proven in history that it is futile to oppose the idea of God, for no matter how cultures and human governments change, the belief in God always prevails in the end.

Although men cannot say much about God Himself, through the majesty displayed int the creation he can see that God is powerful. Psalm 19:1 says that '' the heavens declare the glory of God, and the firmament proclaims the work of His hands.'' The material universe speaks of God's glory, and it also speaks of His wisdom. The God who created the universe is powerful, glorious, and wise.

The very existence of mankind speaks of the existence of God. The human body is a true marvel. Although modern medicine has invented many machines to imitate and to replace man's organ and limbs, no machine can come close to the dexterity and effectiveness of the human organs. The human heart pumps 72 times a minute, or 40 million times a year, while one is awake or asleep. Every day an adult heart pumps blood through 100,000 miles of blood vessel, enough to travel around the world 4 times. It pumps blood enough to fill a 2000 gallon tank car everyday. Who could have designed such a wonderful organ within man? If one were to pile up the red blood cells in his body, the height would exceed that of Mount Everest 5000 times!! These are but a few examples of the wonders of the human body. If we stand before a mirror, we cannot help but agree with what the psalmist in the Bible said:'' I am awesomely and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, and my soul knows it well.'' (Psa 139:14)

The very fact that mankind has been able to exist until today is a testimony yo the sovereignty of God. If God held back sunshine and air, man would have ceased to exist on this earth long ago. Every second, the sun burns up the equivalent of four million tons of fuel in order to keep our planet warm. If God were to charge men for this energy consumption, man would have to come up with about 160,000,000,000,000 U.S dollars a day. But all this sunshine and air has come to us free. As the Bible says," He Himself gives to all life and breath and all thing." (Acts 17:25)

My friends,

No matter what religion we are all in, we believe there is God. The is a powerful force which is ruling over this earth. Man DID NOT evolve from monkeys. Man was CREATED by God. The scientist who once claimed that man evolved from monkeys redrew his saying near his deathbed.
I regret I didn share with all of u guys about the gospel earlier. So I will start this instant.
In my next post I will explain the mystery of the Human Life. What is the purpose of man? Why is man on this earth today. Who is God. What does He wants man to do. All of these questions can be found in my next post. May the Lord continue to enlighten you and work in You. Praise The Lord!!



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The Mystery Of Human Life

The Purpose Of Man's Existence
Have you ever asked yourself why you are living in this world?
What is the purpose and existence of human life?
No matter what your profession is, probably students, there must be a few things which you, like most people would agree with, that is:
Money cannot satisfy man,
Education cannot satisfy man,
Nor can pleasure satisfy man,
Nor can success satisfy man.
( Note: not satisfied in a way that we feel what we have now is not enough, we are not satisfied n we always, always wan more, wan to be greater, want to be richer etc...)

And you all must be wondering WHY??

Because you have not realized:

God's Plan
God has a plan. this plan has everything to do with man. In the Bible, this plan is called God's economy. God's economy is just God's entire plan for man. It explains the origin and destiny of man as well as the meaning of human existence.

How Can You Know God's Economy?
God has prepared four keys for you to unlock God's economy. These four keys are recorded in the Bible. Each of this four keys are equally important.
Please open your heart right now to quietly and carefully read through. You will then grasp these four keys, understand God's economy, realize the purpose of man, and begin a satisfied human life.

The First Key-God's Creation
Unlocking The Mystery Of Human Existence.
1. Man Has God's Image
Please read the following verse from the bible:
"And God said, Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness...." (Genesis 1:26a)

God's creation of man is different from His creation of all other things. He created man in His own image.
Example: A glove is created according to the likeness of a hand with the purpose of containing the hand. The purpose of a glove is to contain the hands. If we use a glove to contain water, sand or anything else, the glove will lose it's purpose.
Likewise, man was created in the image of God with the purpose of containing God.

2. Man Is A Vessel:
Now read the next verse:
God "might make known the riches of His glory upon vessels of mercy... even us" (Romans 9:23-24)

We are vessels of God. That means that we must contain God. God wants to be our content. As bottles are made to contain water, we are made to contain God.
It is no wonder that knowledge, wealth, pleasure, and accomplishment can never satisfy you, for you were created to contain God!!

3. The Three Parts of man:
Please continue to read the next verse: "May your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete." (1 Thessalonians 5:23)
We often say in chinese : ling hun.
Actually these to parts are separated. The {ling} is the spirit. The {hun} is the soul. Man is God's vessel. The Bible divides this vessel into three parts- Spirit, Soul, and the Body. See the diagram below:
The BODY is simply the physical body, belonging to the physiological body, contacting the things of the material realm, and is the most superficial part.
(Note: we eat with our body, we have to take care of our physical body, if not we will get sick. It is our flesh.)

The SOUL is the mental faculty, contacting the things of the mental realm, and is the deeper part of man.
(Note: Our conscience, emotions and thoughts belong to this part. We think, we love, we feel happy etc..)

The SPIRIT is the deepest part of man, belonging to the spiritual level, and contacts the things of God.
For problems of the body one may see a doctor.
For problems of the mind one may visit a psychiatrist.
Yet only God can solve the problems of the Spirit.

4. God's Economy:
God wants to enter into man's spirit, to become his content and his satisfaction.
This is the purpose of human existence! You are not merely created to contain food in your stomach, or contain knowledge in your mind, but you are created to contain God in your Spirit.


The Second Key- Man's Fall
Unlocking the Mystery Of The Good And Evil Natures Of Man
1. The Two Natures of Man
Since man was made in the image of God, he possesses a good nature that matches God's nature, with virtues such as truthfulness, goodness, loveliness, wisdom, kindness, and valor.
However, there is also an evil nature in man which wars against his good nature. The Chinese metaphysicists refer to this war as a battle between reason and lust. Throughout history, both in the East and West, those who understand human nature acknowledge the existence of this evil nature which the Bible calls:

2.Sin
Because sin is in man, he is unable to carry out his good intentions.
No one likes to be greedy, jealous, or muderous.
No one likes to be boastful, arrogant or deceitful.
No one likes to be irritable, lustful, or licentious.
No one likes to murmur, complain, or curse.
(Note: Sin is already in man from the day he was born. You don't need to teach a child to be jealous, you don't need to teach a someone to steal, you don't need to teach someone to lie. All these is he will do by himself. This is because he has sin in him. No one in this whole world has not sin before. Even if you do not cheat, steal, lie, brag outwardly, but you can't deny that your thoughts and your intentions are sinful. )

Nevertheless, man cannot escape his evil nature.
Please read the following verses:
"For I know that in me, that is, in my flesh. nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but to work out good is not." (Romans 7:18)
"But if what I do not will, this I do, it is no longer I that work it out but sin that dwells in me." (Romans 7:20)

3. The Fall Of Man
Sin entered into man and caused him to fall. See the diagram below:

(1) Sin caused man's spirit to be deadened:
"And you, though dead in your offenses and sins." (Ephesians 2:1)

(2) Sin caused man's mind to rebel:
"And you, though once alienated and enemies in your mind because of your evil works." (Colossians 1:21)

(3) Sin caused man's body to sin:
"Do not let sin therefore reign in your mortal body so that you obey the body's lust." (Romans 6:12)

The fallen man is like:
A damaged and untunable radio which cannot receive and play music, but rather meaningless noise.

He is also like:
A cup that has fallen into the gutter still having its original fine form but now covered with mud.

4. Man Cannot Save Himself
Throughout history, man has tried every possible way to escape sin, but has found that:
Good works cannot save him from sin.
Education cannot save him from sin.
Ethics cannot save him from sin.
Chanting cannot save him from sin.
Religion cannot save him from sin.
This picture of man simply depicts the battle between his good nature and his evil nature.

The Third Key-Christ's Redemption
Unlocking The Mystery Of The Life And Death Of The God-Man
1. Who Is Christ?
Christ is the Savior sent from God to the world to solve the problems of human life.
He is the embodiment of the Triune God.
"For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead bodily." (Colossians 2:9)

He is also God incarnated:
"The Word was God...the Word became flesh and tabernacled among us...full of grace and reality.'' (John1:1,14)

Therefore, He is both the complete God and the perfect man.
He is more than a good man!
He is more than a great man!
He is more than a moral man!
He is more than a holy man!
He is the God-man!!

2. The Death Of The God-Man
This God-man was nailed to the cross to accomplish the work of redemption. He died with three statuses:
(1) As the Lamb of God, He died to take away man's sin.
"...the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world.'' (John 1:29)

(2) As the brass serpent that had been lifted up,
He died to crush the old serpent, Satan, and to deal with the serpent's poison within man- his sinful nature.
"And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up." (John3:14)

(3) As a grain of wheat, He died to release the divine life.
"...the grain of wheat...dies, it bears much fruit." (John 12:24)

NOW:
His death has taken away the sin which man has but should not have!
His death imparts into man the life which he needs but do not have!

The Fourth Key- God's Dispensing
Unlocking The Mystery Of Faith In Christ
1. The Two Becomings of Christ
God became flesh, born as a man called Jesus.
Plaese read the following verse:
"The Word became flesh and tabernacled among us." (John1:14)

The Lord became the Spirit called the live-giving Spirit by His Resurrection from the dead.
Read the following verse:
"The last Adam became a life-giving Spirit." (1 Corinthians15:45)

Since this Spirit is the life-giving Spirit , He dispenses God with His life into His believers. Hence, the Bible says:
"He who has the Son has the life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have the life."

2. Regenerating Man
In his first birth, man obtains a physical life.
When man receives God's life through Christ, he experiences a second birth, which the Bible calls regeneration.
" God....has regenerated us...through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead." (1 Peter 1:3)

Jesus said,"Unless one is born anew, he cannot see the kingdom of God." (John 3:3)

A pig cannot participate in the sheep's life by education, improvement, or regulation; it must posses the life of a sheep.
(Note: U can't teach a fish to fly, but u surely don't need to teach it how to swim. This is because it posses the life of a swimming fish.)
Similarly, man cannot participate in God's kingdom and live a divine life by education, improvement, or regulation; he MUST receive the life of God!

3. The Meaning Of Being A Christian
A christian is one who receives God's dispensing. God first dispenses Himself into our spirit and then spreads from our spirit into our soul. Finally, He fills and saturates our spirit, soul, and body with Himself. The Bible calls this final stage of glorification.
"And those whom He predestinated, these He also called; and those whom He justified, these He also glorified." (Romans 8:30)

Through this, we can be transformed and conformed to the image of Christ.
"Because those whom He foreknew, He also predestinated to be conformed to the image of His Son." (Romans 8:29)

This is the purpose of human life!
This is the meaning of being a Christian!
This is what God has planned for you!

(Note: I repeat. To be a christian is not merely being in a religion or group. It is to have to Lord as our enjoyment. To know Him and take Him in as our supply. To be filled with Him in our Spirit. And all the things I typed above are not my sayings. It is taken from the booklet :The Mystery Of Human Life.)

Praise The Lord for such a wonderful and glorious economy!!!



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#Sweet 16# ^^

eerr..... I see a very happy Mei Sim... WAHAHA!!!!

Our 'waxed' nails... haha....

err... it's suppose to be a star with a... a fire in the middle...

Wow... nice dimple... hihi....

My greedy face... wahaha...

My present... Thanks a lot!!! ^^

My pretty fat cake...

My poor terrorized desk...

It would be sweet if it wasn't BURNING on my desk...

The darkest hand belongs to liew chien... wahaha...

The bestest of the best... I totally love them!!

A mini bon-fire in class... HARAM...

Haha... *blush*

Yue Qing n Sharine da cuties... hehe...

Andy's masterpiece... thx...^^

Me n Wan Shing...

Weeee..................... can't live happily without her~ ^^

Wahaha...

bla bla bla..

Me n my ''emak tua''... wahaha...

Me n Vian...

My best buddies!!! T.T

Looks like I'm karate chopping my head (which I'm not)

The blue society...

The dalang behind this... And I LOVE her!!!

He looks angry... hehe...

Friday was my b'day...

The whole class celebrated wif me...

Haha... I'm so touched... They bought me a cake...

And we used sivik period to celebrate... haha...

Thank you everyone 4 making my day so special... I love averyone of u... 4C Is the BEST!! ^^

Jia Ling got her wish... This is definitely the most unforgetable day of my life... I thank everyone who has made it real....

Actually I haven't exactly finished my wish, cuz many ppl looked too eager to eat d cake...

So... here is my complete wish:

I wish dat 4C will always remain active (even hyper) and full of life... All 4C members will help each other no matter wat... Will love each other like family... Becuz we have the best if we have each other... And lastly.... I LOVE U, WHACKY PPL OF 4C!!!!!

I want to thank everyone hu wished me happy b'day...

I got a list: Liew Chien (very punctual), Jia Ling, Sharine, Lui Jieng, Ming Wei, Mei Yan, Celine, Wei Wah, Yew Jin, everyone in 4c, Boon Ying, Jing Jing, Stella, Bobo, Emay... N a few more I seriously can't remeber... Thanks guys!!! ^^

I'm sorry if I 4got ur b'days.... I wish u all now... HAPPY B'DAY EVERYONE!!!


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